I.AM.OH.SO.AWESOME.

MALAYSIA

2009-12-23T11:30:00.001+08:00

I'll be off to Malaysia for a few days!

Take care you guys!
:)

2009-12-20T20:02:00.008+08:00

Been gone a tad too long, and I kinda miss blogging.

As you might have known by now (duh), I've changed my url. I guess Im moving away from that old url for both good and bad reasons of which Im not gonna list out. We change now and then, don't we all? :)

In the long span of time, I've had so many interesting things both positive and negative which has been happening. How so very interesting! From the time, i've stopped blogging I've had:
-attended poly forum
-gone to chalets which are worth remembering
-gone to the clubs, since I turned 18, not joking hahhaa.
-had a fun halloween
-had hell good of a time

Let me just post the pictures to reiteriate my above mentioned activites :)

Met my secondary school clique. I felt so attached to them within that 4hours, didnt want the outing to come to an end ):

Had a Christmas Gift Exchange with these lovely girls of mine <3

Also had a real good time gossiping and bitching-what girls do best!

This is 503 from Poly Forum! Even though we only had 1 week to bond, we've bonded well enough to be close - i can talk to anyone of them about anything at all. This was a gathering at Julius' Place.

The first time I went clubbing - Series of good and bad events.

Second time clubbing, same good and bad.

Had a 4e2 gathering (FINALLY) not long ago:

e45b, my current class, went to snow cityyy:

This was during our visit to lighthouse for our jive event. I felt sooo touched when the guy in green came up to me and held my hands. I just felt good that he trusted me enough, as a stranger. I really felt upset when I went down, but at the same time I felt really happy seeing them putting their skills to good use despite being physically disabled.

I saw this indian old man who reminded me of my granddad. Went up to him and spoke to him, I just felt like as if I was talking to my own grandfather. :(

This is specially for phyllis,

Babygirl, how are you! I hope youre having fun over at USA. I miss you so much, no one to make fun of and talk cock and bullshit with. :(

Come back fast! I think you're in Las Vegas now right! oh myyyy! please come back fast & in one piece. Happy New Year Baby P! <3

This handsome boy,

is turning 21 in less than a month. I wanna make it a memorable one for him <3

Was having a convo with Yizhe and somehow came to the part of getting drunk. Acc. to him, since im so on and 'happening' hahah i must be clubbing now and then. my oh my, yours truly beg to differ. as bad as it may seems, my parents arent the kind who would tolerate me staying out late at night all the time. Of course I can for special occasions. but wait, that doesnt make them conservative, they're VERY open... just not for the idea of their 18 year old daughter staying out every other week/day.

So speaking of which, shit I hate alcohol. Do you have any idea how much I hate that disgusting tasting bitter yucky terrible liquid? I vomit with 1/2 a glass. I know I pretty much sound like a loser but who cares, I go weak on the smell of smoke and taste of alcohol. howveryboo.

And I owe sage chocolates.

Sage: ... & woman you still owe me chocolates
Aarti: hahahhaah i know right! as easy as chocolates seem to be remembered, i

keep forgetting. okay I PROMISE the next I meet you, I buy okay! IF NOT

MY BOOBS GROW SMALLER.

after i'd typed that & being the forgetful bum I am, it was sure a risky promise. die.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5000000000000

2009-09-08T00:08:00.002+08:00

Sorry ya'll I've been really busy I really do not have the time to update the blog! I can't bear to delete the blog though, all the past memories are here! nvm nvm, I shall try my best to keep the blog alive now that the holidays are here! =)

Finally school holidays - didnt really feel so energetic for school the past semester, this is bad because its so not like me, I wonder why...

Had Polytechnic Forum Activities today! I can't wait for Pulai Springs Vacation on the 14th-17th Sept! ONE MORE WEEEEEKKK!! So apparently polytechnic forum has been quite fun so far. Presentation on behalf of my sub theme tomorrow, I hope whatever I prepared in the slides are relevant. I have no intentions of making myself a clown, tyvm.

You know, so much of things have been happening lately, I feel my head spinning right round right round. No really, having to tend to so many things at one time really makes one go crazy, particulary me! I kinda sleeptalk so much these days also! Argh! I think I need one day to myself to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep the day away!

Okay lah apart from having to do so many things, I dont really have any more things left to whine about, lol. Oh finally my bangs have grown and my fringe is back.to.the.side. ha-ha-ha. I think I looked like a complete idiot with bangs, though some people said it suited me fine, my ass. I didnt really like it, such a horror! I'm happy with my pretty hair now so I shall not sound like a pampered brat anymore.

Nice right? I know.

This is Amanda. Yea go ahead. Vivian lai look alike, no?

SEE ME WITH BANGS. ewwww.

This is my retard pal phyllis

& this is vivek menon

Replies to tags:

Leen - hahaha, yes yes im honoured *bows*

Phyllis - Oh my princess, i love you too!

Nick - yes yes, oioi dont action i also getting license soon ok!

Kelly - yes kelly! & thanks :)

You Know Who You Are - HA-HA-HA. of course.

Passerby 1 - who is this? ahahha, i rather it remain a secret :)

Passerby 2 - Why thank you :)

Hello - hello! done!

i dont care i dont care i dont care what they say

2009-08-06T11:40:00.002+08:00

Time will tell
Or
Time will heal

Which one am I supposed to expect? Sometimes I feel myself so stuck in certain circumstances that it becomes almost impossible to ever expect anything. If I choose to believe that time will tell, what exactly I am expecting time to tell me, I wonder. Tell me how much I would benefit if I stop giving in to those who don’t really appreciate or for the matter those who are not worthy of me?

If time will heal, will the same thing happen again sooner than I expect? As much as I hate to admit, I don’t like the feeling of being lost and stuck. I hate it when I can’t make myself feel normal as I always have. Back in secondary school, I swear upon anything I never once felt the way I feel these days.
There are a few people I really thank for being a part of me and these people deserve the best in life for being the best people around.

I was having a conversation with my bestest “partner” a while ago and I sort of realized that I’ve the best people around me in my life currently that I really don’t need any additions (: I’m feeling more than just happy with one less pest in my life.

So, we were talking about appreciating one another and being the strong pillar of support all the time. We were making fun of everything and everyone we could, we were talking and talking about everything and anything under sun it almost felt like hours passed like seconds. We were swinging on swings just like little kids. We were munching on strawberries and being all so satisfied with how good it tastes. We were making meanings out of words which seemed like we were reading each other’s minds. I love this partner of mine so much that words can’t even explain. Dear you know who you are, we can fight till the cows come home and irritate each other to the maximum, but you are someone I want to grow old with. I want to look back and say you’re the best! I want to turn around and say I didn’t make a mistake! Thank you for tolerating my cries, whines and complains whenever I quarrel with someone. You the best!

i'm all over the place

2009-07-27T12:19:00.010+08:00

I'm back to blogging after such a long time, like finally. The result of procastination has detrimental effects,really.

So what I've been up to pretty much revolves around successfully making it through Pre U Seminar from which friendships forged stays close to me. :] Discovered my long lost cousin from there as well, what're the chances? Pretty much made new friends from all around Singapore and I realized friendship doesnt just revolve around 1 or 2 people in your life. I was touched to see how SG 18 bonded soon after Pre U Sem started.

So anyhow, E55A is a real blessing. I am happy for the friends I've made in this class. But im getting so tired of school I wanna go back to relief teaching! oh oh speaking about it, my class has like 7 relief teachers now! cool or what! All i had to do was share how I spent my holidays and soon enough 6 others are ready to join me! I hope they have an awesome experience doing relief teaching, or not they're gonna hate me :P

Some pictures to share:

I PASSED MY BTT! I PASSED I PASSED I PASSED! =) goodness, I just cant wait to get my license. I am sooo impatient I swear Im grabbing any available opportunities I have to go for driving lessons! I hate taking the public transport, really. If there's one wish I have now - GET MY LICENSE NOW NOW NOW.

To be truthful, the past one month hasnt been good or fun. I havent been happy the least bit if I were to think back. It's been terrible struggling with all the problems but I'm happy people are starting to realize who's truthful and who's not. Who's worth it and who's not. Who's the liar and who's not. I am happy though, in the midst of this I ended something I've always wanted to. Irritating and Annoying be gone!

okayokayokay, i'm all over the place for this post. I'll stop here!

happy birthday

2009-06-13T22:38:00.003+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday Elly! :)

I hope you had fun and do remember presents exchange <3

It's been a pleasure knowing you really! We're full of distractions when we're in the same group! My toilet partner, thanks for going to the toilet with me all the timeeee.haha. cheer up okayokayokay i dont want you to be sad on your birthday.

Love you love you love you....

zero nine zero six

2009-06-09T23:35:00.007+08:00

I enjoyed my 18th birthday so much :]

Thank you all of you for the birthday wishes, birthday presents, birthday hugs, birthday kisses!

I need to gather all the pics and i'll be back with a perfect birthday entry :D

19th May 2009 & 22nd May 2009

2009-05-31T22:55:00.001+08:00

No seriously, so much has been happening that now I get down to blogging, I dont know which event to start off with.

Okay Reshmi's 18th first.

Held a celebration for her in her class.
That was pretty much the first part of the celebrations. :]

I hope you had fun!

Second part of the celebrations saw us at Mount Faber.

I'm more than certain reshmi loved this alot because she's always wanted to go to Mount Faber. And she loves sceneries. Took the cable car for the first time as well. oh well, at least she enjoyed her memorable 18th birthday :]

memories of the past

2009-05-27T09:27:00.003+08:00

In the car on the way to school this morning, had a general talk with my mum and it was on the most sensitive topic. My grandfather. What we spoke about got me so emotional that I cried in silence and secretly, since I was sitting at the back. I still find it difficult to talk about such a topic up to date. I guess Im acceptable to the fact that he's no longer with us, but im not over that fact.

I really loved my grandfather alot. Every morning I remember walking up to him and saying one or two lines before heading off for anything, I remember kissing him goodnight everyday. I remember sponging him when he used to have high fever. I remember cleaning him when he dirties himself. I remember how he used to laugh with a smile so wide when we used to joke at home. I remember when he used to fetch me from Kindergarten and would always always always bring a sweet along. I remember how he'll always offer me food before he eats it. I remember how he used to tell me to be a good girl because life is not always as easy as we take it. I remember how he used to cheer me up when I come back from school so stressed. I remember how we used to sit and watch tv together.

The first shock came when he had dementia. I thought that was the end. I thought we'd all be gradually forgotten. It was hard to accept, but I took it in my stride and still thanked the fact that he was still with us. Thankfully, it was mild and on and off he still remembers who is who and what to do. I clearly remember when I was standing beside him in NUH ICU unit, and the only two people he responded to was my dad and me. Tears welled up that very moment. I knew my grandfather understood I was there as I always had been.

I saw him grow from such a strong man to someone so old and feeble with his health deteoriating one aspect at a time. Though it hurt so terribly to see him go through so much over the so weak and thin body he had, I couldn't do anything. Ambulance after ambulance in my house everytime he goes all weak and sick. From NUH, it was back home and in not more than a month, he was admitted to CDC. I knew clearly those were the last few days. A few instances we were warned to "be prepared". A few instances we rushed all the way down, but we were still 'lucky'. And then on the 24th March, he passed away in the afternoon. When I got the call from my mother and I heard her crying, I knew that instant, that was it. I had no means of expressing that sadness I've bottled up for so long other than crying my lungs out. That day was the last day I had my closest grandparent with me. He shared everything with me and meant the world to me. Him before anyone else.

But now, though he's gone, he's with me always in that fragile heart of mine. I try to keep myself so occupied so that I dont have time to think. But the moment Im left alone at home, I go all weak and emotional again. Home is just different without him.

My dearest grandfather, today was the one day every since you passed away that I got to talk to my mother about you. Wherever you may be now, do know that I still thank you for giving me all you have and for all you did. For all that happened, you were who God blessed me with. I love you with all my heart. I really yearn for you to be by my side, but its a wish which can never be granted. I've lost you forever but I still love you forever. :)

June babies

2009-05-26T15:23:00.003+08:00

Okay this is so cool!

So I saw Siva on the way to class one morning. I know Siva through Lucien, my last sem good friend :) Siva and Lucien are like the bestest of friends, I can't say more than that.

Siva: Aarti! How was xx's birthday?
Aarti: Haha, i think it was good. you didnt wish?
Siva: No! Dont want ah! haha.
Aarti: Eh why you going E5?
Siva: I in E5 what!
Aarti: Huh! oh that means today you same class as Lucien ah?
Siva: We everyday same class!
Aarti: OMG! but i thought Lucien change class everyday?
Siva: Ya me also! But we change class but me and him still together in a class.
Aarti: Sia lah, so lucky. *gives a sad face
Siva: haha, me and lucien alot of things in common lah. birthdate also near each other's, coming soon *hehe*
Aarti: Eh! coming soon? when is lucien's birthday?
Siva: 11th june lor
---Then i was thinking, 11th june?! means Siva's birthday is around that time as well----
Aarti: HUH! THEN YOURS?
Siva: 10th june!
Aarti: OH MY GOD MINE IS 9TH JUNE!
Both burst out laughing.

This is seriously super coincidental man!

Over that, I have so many people in my class this sem with their birthdays falling in June.
2nd June: Claire
9th June: Aarti
13th June: Elly
14th June: Labin

I KNOW SO MANY OTHERS WHO HAVE BIRTHDAYS IN JUNE AS WELL. HAHA, EXPENSIVE MONTH! :D

something ---- DIFFERENT!

2009-05-25T15:06:00.002+08:00

Today's presentation was one of the most interesting ones I've ever explored with the group. Well, it included the whole group going down to AMK Hub just to interview a personal trainer from Fitness First. I kinda feel this is one of the best groups I've had because we can really relate well and flow on the same thoughts for most of the issues. :)

With Dalton being the centre of attraction thanks to his jokes, the group never lacks in the timely dose of laughters. As I was saying, today's presentation saw us as the group with the whacky ideas? We interviewed one another in Macdonalds and this caused us stares of different kinds. oooh. oh oh one more thing. While we were in Macdonalds, this particular lady kept staring at us in such a fierce and disgusting manner - like as though we've offended her in one way or another. That got us quite irritated and Amanda went like, "erm excuse me can you please stop staring at us?" And she defended herself with a priceless emotion; nothing to say. c-l-a-s-s-i-c.

All in all, lunch was funfunfun! The group was rather crazyyyy - we ended up having to take 2 cabs back because we overshot the time limit. Amanda Phyllis and I took a cab and we were pretty much talking about how much we should go for lunch more often. I guess sharing this exceptional close bond with classmates is a thing to treasure. "Friends are easy to make but difficult to maintain" - I swear my faci JUST said this.

I had one thought in mind the whole of today and I think Amanda and Phyllis sort of had the same feeling. "It's so fun to be doing something so different!" hahaha. well, I treasure how much we went through and the jokes we created in AMK Hub with the whole group :)

Omg, Sociology Test in an hour! =X

same script, different cast

2009-05-22T09:27:00.003+08:00

Not one,
Not two,
Not three,
Not four,
Not five
But six people have been asking me since yesterday if I was okay.

I might've looked lost in thoughts. yes I am, I really have alot on my mind.
I might not have been as cheerful as all other days. yes, I don't feel like doing nonsense or joking or playing.
I might have ignored certain requests. yes, I cannot keep up with the so fast pace.
I might be quiet at times. yes, I am not just quiet, im very very very tired as well.
I mightbe sarcastic, yes thats because I dont like you.

Sometimes, things just dont go your way. But for now, if only I could make everything be the way I want it to, I'll be happy. Very happy. I am drained just by thinking of everything that makes me tired. Throughout this "aarti-is-thinking-alot" period, I have lately realized how much people would go to help others. To know of someone you've given your all to most of the time, turning against the fact that you need help. Hell to not wanting to state the obvious for the very fact that people would gloat over it. Gloat all you want, because you loser in the end would feel sad of whatever pitiful fact you name. So come on get a life. I am not exactly in the best of moods to "spread the laughter and hyper activeness". I have people whom I can really trust to tell my bothers to but i just refuse to. I dont know why I choose to keep this within myself.

I could so totally dedicate the song, same script different cast to myself now. Dont try comprehending why, you'll never guess.

I'll be back with a post so different from this, just you see :)

a very special lady

2009-05-10T20:33:00.007+08:00

Mummy,

You're one of the most important people in the world to me.
When im sad, I think of you. When im happy, I'll make you happy too :)
You're the one who can make me feel that everything else is okay.
You show me more to just normal colours.
You give me more than I could ever ask for.
You teach me more than anyone would.
You dry the tears in my eyes, you clear the problems that arise, you give me more hope than I could hope for.
You mean the world to me mummy, I love you :)

Happy Mother's Day!

busy busyyy busyyyyy

2009-05-02T18:50:00.007+08:00

Within a month, now that Im back to blogging, I've got so much to tell the world. I'm pretty sure after this entry the next one will not come before a week. unless I find anything worthy to blog, i wont even be signing in to blogger. I've been caught up with so many things, i cant even find time to update my blog which I have time and again reminded myself to. hahah, lets just say im hopeless.

The only reason I'm updating it today is because Im not feeling well (probably the only reason which can keep my ass home). Supposed to go back for Pre U Sem meeting but i really cannot gather enough energy to get up and get out of the house. I am so tired to the bone, I just wanna sleeeeeep the whole day away. I feel so bad for ditching the group today omg. But im doing my best by keeping online so that I can keep up with updates, Im just not there physically. I was supposed to meet sylvia today also because she's leaving tomorrow. AHHHH :(

I hate it. I used to never fall ill. Used to be so strong. But after secondary 3, i've been falling sick like nobody's business.

Oh for those who know I went to India, India was awesome. It was a place which made me realize how lucky I actually am. I know lah, so many of you keep saying im so spoilt dont wanna take public transport, always wasting food bla bla bla but none of these are intentional okay. I dont like taking public transport especially bus and mrt because i dont like travelling for so long
:( So if i ever travel a distance to meet you, you better know you mean alot to me! as for wasting food, if i really cannot eat means cannot eat lah. dont tell me i'm wasting food, i'll shove it down your mouth.

Bottle Tree Park with Vivek was fun yesterday! Im sure he was so fascinated with the swans. BUT IM SO SORRY FOR VOMITTING IN FRONT OF YOU TWO TIME YESTERDAY. HAHAHA. really not intentional okay! :( but anyway, glad you enjoyed every bit of it. You better remember mother's day is coming :)

Year 2 has started. hahha which brings me to the most important point of it. Its really no more playtime. I swear. Its getting more and more competitive by the problems. Class has been awesome nonetheless. Groups for all the modules are really easy to work with. The only difficulty I have is with Microeconomics. I really cannot catch up I so have to start from scratch soon. Im gonna die otherwise.

I MISS RELIEF TEACHING ALOT ALSO! :(

PICTURES TIME!

Jazrel, Aaron, Aarti, Eileen :)

SAME BAG!

LORRIAN!

ANITA!

I am feeling so emotional now. I got so many things I want to say to alot of people.

Oh screw it.

Replies to tags :

e)doublely.: time t update man drama queeen! (:
haha, i just did! haha i realized too.

dei: hi aarti ... (:
dr kwok! haha

CLAIRE: HeyHey! my new classmates... nice to be in the same grp with you! Cheers babe!
eh! totally! haha, nice talking to you too sweets!

minyi: I LOVE YOU BABE
love you too :)

anita: muackkkkk!!!!
xoxo!

e)doublely.: hihi babyyyyyyy! you pro girl !
hey honey! haha,no lah why am i pro?

meutia: updateeeeeeeeeeeee
meutia: <3>
i updated, love!

sylvia: baby!!!!!!
honey you better take care of yourself when you're away okay? ily.

siewhong: oi! update lah! hahas, i missed you babe !
haha updated la! i miss you too!

Jared: Oi. Miss the kids a lot. miss you and shu too. hmms. Thanks a lot for today. really reminded me a lot of things(: Jia yous!
chill. hahah. you too! yr 2 really not easy eh!

Nick: 1st day of sch u should update haha =)
done :) haha

Kuku: AARTI!!!!!RELNIK!!!
sure sure. soon!

Shuh: Ok one more fellow RT shud do it.LINK ME LAAAAH.ANW,MISS YOUUUUUUUUU! =)
hahaha okay soon! i miss you too!!

Jared: zzz... Link me link me!! hehs. ps sia. I nvr go sch today. >.<>
hahaha, soon!

Christina: oh.. juz realise.. why u neva link mi?!! =((
oops. soon! i got so many people to link hahahhaa

Okay, I guess the highlights of what I want to cover is up. back for more updates soon.

You

2009-04-05T21:23:00.002+08:00

You may say I've changed,
You may say I'm no longer the person you knew
A different person, someone new
To you, I may have changed for the worst
Think about what made me like that first

I took it all in without a word
I gave it all up and moved forward
But now when I think back and thought about it all
How silly I was because through it all I still fall

I too have my limits
and now you've crossed the limit.
Whatever I am, However I am towards you,
I only know one thing which sticks true :
You made me like that.

another avenue, please?

2009-04-02T16:52:00.011+08:00

So the past month brought me on a major rollercoaster ride. Truth be told, March has been one of the ugliest month of 2009.

Anyway, bad thoughts aside (what an eternal optimist i know!)

This was when we had a crazy time at pizza hut last week. We were making so much of noise that we didnt even realize a familiar face till like half an hour later. But the point of talking without boundaries and limits was the most satisfying of all I'd say.

Before meeting stacey, Nicholas and I met up for a long talk. Granted that he was down, I had to search my um, crazy whacky and influential mind (hahahah) to get that boy back to his proper senses. One moment its a -imbacktomyself- nicholas and the other its -damnit,thereIgoagain- nicholas. But whatever, you'll move on just fine nicholas mok. Bit by bit! and Im glad I was of much help! we should have taken a picture damn it! see lah you, emo emo emo. basket.

I met up with stacey after such a long time also! :) As usual, what we'd always do...

Stacey, you do know what I was looking forward to the day we met right? haha!

Ex classmates met yesterday as well (:

Jiemin,Weiliang,Joyce,Xuejun,Elaine,Aarti,Noriz,Nabilah!

Finally met these girls! Nabilah and Noriz not in the picture!

Yesterday was CRAZY! Walked around FarEast and bought so many accessories! went to Gelare for small bites. Had icecream from the shop nearby also. Went to Wheelocks Place after that and that was the start of all the nonsense. Elaine got her slippers from NUM. In the shop, we were joking and laughing so hard I swear tears welled up from all that laughter. Elaine, apparently found the mannequin irrestible, touched its hand and the hand FELL OFF! So XueJun took the hand and while holding it she herself couldnt stop laughing. When she told the boys there, I swear it was the most retarded look and scene I would have ever pictured. Even people in the shop started laughing. So I said, " Please dont publicize that we're from Republic" and one of the boys turned and said, Im from RP going on to yr 3 also! haha classic!

Finally got a grip of myself when we left the shop. went to wisma and we got pair clothes from Forever 21! as in, nabilah and I got the same top;elaine & xuejun got the same top! Then made way to Taka-Kinokuniya. Made so much of noise that if it was a library, we'd have been kicked out. Headed to Cineleisure after that. Was a long day but I was so happy that I got to meet those darlings of mine! glad that all are doing well. We joked so much that I was so tired after that. What we spoke in the train remains between us remember :)

Im falling apart. Okay bye, Im superdupermegaultra tired now!

2009-03-09T16:48:00.006+08:00

RELIEF TEACHING HAS BEEN SO AWESOME :)

because... i have nice company at school! so much so that free periods are no longer boring!

Christina and Shuhailah are doing relief teaching as well and! everytime we have free time, it's so nice to be able to sit and talk to them! haha. sometimes talking to people you've just met but seem to clique so well is such a good thing. no communication barrier! not like i had a problem with that, but still....

Apart from the fact that the 2 of them find someone hot and only I have luck with that someone. hurhur. NEHNEHNIPOOPOO you two!

Frankly speaking, talking to the two of them surprisingly is so easy. Doesnt seem like I just got to know them. Sad thing's that Christina's away on attachment now, so its just me and Shuhailah. but its okay, CHRISTINA GET BACK FAST! We'll be waiting for you! haha.

Shuhailah :]

As much as Jiemin claimed sometime ago, that he's sad that there'll be no more w45h when school reopens, I guess its time to admit that I've been pushing aside this daunting fact. So much so that thinking of it makes me all emotional again. If there's one thing I'd have to say about myself that I pretty much H.A.T.E- i am such an emotional freak. I hate it hate it HATE IT.

That brings me to this : 2 of my friends are now talking to me about their grandparent not being in the best of health. I am just hearing them out, I repeat, hearing them out - but it brings back those unwanted memories. brings my spirits to the lowest ebb imaginable.

Anyway, I have a friend whom I used to like being around alot. um before you start double guessing, she's a girl. A used to be my close friend for sooooo long and as for as long as I knew her, we used to do so many things together. Laugh play gossip get into trouble cry(IM SERIOUS) together. So close that I dare say we dont even quarrel much. But now? I cant even say we dont quarrel. because on the surface we seem to randiant and fine but its actually all shaky and unstable from the inside. Sucks pretty much to see a friendship which was going so strong tumble just like that. but what can I do? yes, we've "talked it out" but honestly, I doubt it meant much because nothing changed. kept on telling ourselves we've to stop fighting but we never do (silent fights, i mean).

I am so tired of all these, I swear. I hate it that when your name is brought up I have to change the topic. I really have to because I dread talking about it - after that the shit in me I have to deal with is untolerable. Its not that I'm saying you've changed or anything. Im just saying. we've changed. we've both changed towards one another. It affects me alot but everytime we talk it out nothing seems to change so I've pretty much given up talking.

I love you alot, girlfriend. I really do. You're someone I kind of grew up with. You're that someone I sat with and tried to calm when you were in a frenzy and all over the place 2 years back. You're someone I'd go miles for. You're someone I used to talk to on the phone till the wee hours. You're that someone I could look at and laugh at. You're that someone who would still love me though I abandoned you so many times because of my other commitments (i think if you know its you, you know what im referring to) Most of all, You're that someone I could really trust. I really want that friendship back - hopefully its not too late.

Truth be told, I feel like shit now.

one to remember!

2009-03-07T22:09:00.009+08:00

COOL.FUN.SUPERB.AWESOME.BEST.

For my best friend, Vivek Menon,

No words can describe how much you mean to me
No one can replace you in me
If all else seems to fail, you're there to save that smile
You stood by me not matter what,
Always always always taking my pms moments without fail
You're a dream come true, an answered prayer
what's best is, you're just you :)
We've been through way too much for me to ever forget you!

Last Saturday:

Met Vivek at Tampines and went SHOPPING - HAHA! After walking around, we went up to the garden like area to just rest. Also what you'd call, heart to heart moments :)

Had lunch and did what Vivek loves doing best - disturbing people! He just needs to distrub them.His daily dose of entertainment. Not like he cares how much people get annoyed -
bottom line, he's satisfied!

So after a while of walking, decided to go to the arcadeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Only to play, AIR HOCKEY :D

Needless to say Vivek won- flat down. SO SO SO embarrassing because people were all watching. I couldn't stop laughing at how stupid it was trying to gaurd my side of the goal but yet lost time and time again. I scored an embarrassing 2 agaisnt his 8! Second round (because he "gave me chance-EYEEERRRR") I did better, 4 - 6 HAHAHA. still loser!

The day was really really nice :)

Monday:

Went for relief teaching in the morning. I always get awesome kids who are so nice at heart:) Makes your day so much more pleasant and lively!

After relief, met Vivek at Vivo City forrrrr My Bloody Valentines' in 3D!

BUT FIRST!
We walked around Vivo, checked a few things out and since the movie was only at 9 and we were still so early, we went to the water area :) SURPRISED VIVEK THERE WITH SOMETHING HE NEVER EXPECTED yet ALWAYS WANTED :D so nice to see that smile on his face! succeeded once again (:

Then then then, went to Long John - GOSSIPED ALOT! HAHAHA. I'll never forget. It was a long yet touching talk we had!

Went to watch the movieeee after that :) It was nice! haha. Cracking jokes in the middle of the movie was hilarious!

Wednesday : It was a journey from BoonLay to Eunos to Woodlands and then to school for relief teaching. It was an awesome day nonetheless :) Nice bermudas as well!

Had Subway after relief teaching on Thursday. And alot of talking and talking (not that it's something new but it's something to treasure! haha vivek you know i know!)

Todayyy:
Met at Pasir ris. Trained to Tampines.

Shop by shop. Clothes by clothes. Shoe by shoe. Then finally to SUB. yay yay yay!

Vivek left the shop with 2 shirts! He looks sooooooooooo nice in it. Omg, I can just MELT! :]

After SUB was PUMA TIMEEEE! And Vivek got me a white PUMA bag that I've been eyeing on for since FOREVER! OKAY MAYBE NOT FOREVER SINCE THE DESIGN JUST CAME OUT, BUT I'VE BEEN CRUSHING ON IT EVER SINCE I SAW IT. HAHAH. IM LIKE, OVER THE MOON! REALLY. DREAM COME TRUE :p thank you vivek thank you!

OMGOMGOMG. ITS MINE NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW :D

Then went to swensens for icecream. HAHA I WAS TREATED TO STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATEEEE :D

After that went to Converse to get Vivek's shoe! :)
While waiting for them to get it ready, went to play air hockey again! ahhaha. played twice. I WON ONCE HAHAHHA. Like finallyyyy!

ALL IN ALL.

Thank you for such an awesome day, vivek! I LOVE YOU!

I end with a quote, "Together forever, never apart. Maybe in distance, but never in heart.”
http://www.indianchild.com/my_friend.htm

CHANGEEEEEEEEEE AARTI (:

2009-02-23T20:30:00.004+08:00

I remember having this urge of wanting to cut my hair every single time i thought it's grown quite a bit. Okay wait, that was like years back - um, 5/6 years? Yes, I used to love having short hair. errrr, okay but that was back then. :)

So then I started growing my hair from secondary 2. I must admit it took alot of patience especially when you decide and all of a sudden have the urge for long hair. You see if you have long hair and decide you want it short, easy peasy lemon squeezy-cut it. But if you have short hair and suddenly want it long, it seems like it takes an eternity! anyhow, you get the drift.

So... after having long haior for close to 4 years now, I have never wanted to cut even 1 cm. Dont ask why I really have no idea. haha. wierd, but true. THEN THEN THEN there was this night when I was browsing through pictures, and this picture in which my hair looks medium length (actually its still my longggggggg hair i dont know how it got hid in the picture, i guess I was wearing black thats why) and I love the way my hair looks in it!

This is the picture which makes me wanna cut my hairrrrr :D

That was when I decided to cut my hair. Okay this may not be a big thing but.. it is to me alright! One thing I love so much about myself - my beautiful hair. neh neh ni poo poo.

Logged on to msn the other day while thinking about whether or not to cut my hair, and something popped up from the below of the msn screen - it's time for a change. hahahaha. i'll show you proof. I spoke to the seaker girl about as well, she says the same. LOOK!

SEE SEE. ahahaha too much of a coincidence! :D

Maybe it's really time for a change!

But what if i cut, and then regret it?

ARGGGGHHHHH

all in all

2009-02-21T22:07:00.004+08:00

Long post alert.

I am such a bad owner of this blog. Ive kept this dead for way too long, i realize. But I swear my life has taken on a major rollercoaster ride - i have so much to blog about, so many pictures to upload that just by thinking of it, im THIS close to procastinating again. Then again, since it's a lazy saturday I shall not be such a spoilt spot and get down to some serious blogging. To all those i've promised that I would blog, here comes the promise, finally! I should go jump down for being such a lazy bum.

First : Chingay

Chingay was honestly a blast! For both days, the memories are just.. precious. In fact since the time rehearsals started, I dare say not a day we did not enjoy what we were doing. The group owes it to Oliver and Tze Chien for such an awesome performance made possible. (:

We sure had fun injecting jokes and laughter here and there during intense rehearsals to ease the tension and the stress level from everyone! I must agree that Chingay has been a platform for us to show what drama republic are really capable of - the improvisation on how to react to and interact with the audience. Overall, I personally enjoyed myself with the group. Lets just say - if im given the chance, I would want to turn back time.

After first night's performance, went for dinner with the girls. After second night's performance, went out with vivek & sandhya. Reshmi had something on, so she gave it a miss. Thank you darlings, for coming down to watch (: LOVE!

I loved every bit of Chingay 2009 (:

Next Up, Valentines' Day!

It was well spent because I am never going to forget this day. Met Vivek Reshmi Minyi - had dinner at Newyork Newyork then took the Singapore Flyer - To us, we felt it is a one time take and then feel really good that you've gone on the Singapore Flyer ride. =) Loved the gifts!

The best part of Valentines' Day was exchanging gifts! and of course, spending that precious time together. Feels great, but can hardly be described in words.

A collage of friends :) of course there are many more but i chose the nicer pictures!

For all those who've been a part of me - whether or not your picture is in the collage, thank you so much. In one way or another you've been a blessing to me. Thank you so much for the smile you've brought to my face, for the tears I might have shed for you or for the fun and pain we've gone through.I appreciate every one of you :)

Next up, meeting HONG WEIQIAN! like after so long. talking to her once again about everything was so nice. How I went on and on and on like a train, she laughed and yet gave advice like we used to give in secondary school. I miss tanglin like crazy much. Again, if only time could come to a standstill when you really want to. If only I could tune my life the way I want it to be. Such a wishful thinking. Pocket full of wishes which can never be fulfilled. Tanglin times were the times when we could all be so carefree and yet stay bonded. When school seemed fun. Not that school now is not fun, but Tanglin times are what I'll call the times. Every memory, good or bad, I still like Tanglin all the same. Met Seri on the train that day and we spoke about Tanglin too. Sigh. Such a big part of my life I've moved on from, but i'll never move away from (:

ALSO,

Vivek Menon (:
Best friend,I just wanna tell you, we may go through crazy rollercoaster rides now and then, or even crazy fights that we'll have, you are still one of those people who mean the world to me. Your jokes and nonsense can just brighten my shitty and unhappy day. As much as it may have shown that whatever there is to be shared between best friends, has been shared - I still end this paragraph by saying : I CANT WAIT FOR SATURDAYYY. REMEMBER OUR GAME? :D i love you tonsssssssssss, dearest.

Shaheedah, Meutia, Sylvia.

There would be times when there would be ups & downs. I just dont like the way things are. All these has to stop. alright? When there is a will, there is a way. We are capable of more than these little squabbles here and there. That said, just know that I love each and everyone of you the same. What doesnt kill us only makes us stronger. All the rubbish we do and laugh over, why not just put all unhappiness behind us? :)

In Order(in picture) Reshmi, Vivek, Minyi

We've been through alot, something we wont deny.Jealousy? Happiness? Sadness? Tears? Anger? Who said we were going to succumb to all those? Sad as it may seem to those who try their might to pull us apart, we're still standing strong, till today. there may have been disputes between one another - it is part and parcel of every friendship (:What doesnt kill us, makes us stronger. VRM, this line goes out to all of you :You're a great part of me (: Thank you for being there, for all the jokes laughters and sadness we've shared. I love you guys alot. Im glad we spent Valentines' Day together. It was fun, nice, touching, loving and awesomeeeee.

You girls! i miss all of you so much! I just cant help but to remember the date since we all got closer, 13th right! :) LETS MEET UP SOON. EVERYTIME I THINK OF TANGLIN, i THINK OF ALL OF YOU.

HEY HEY HEY YOU GUYS. We should all meet up soon! catch up and laugh over almost anything and everything! STACEY!SERI! remember SAP, AAP, RAP? :)

OKAY, now....
Im done.
So long you guys!

2009-01-29T18:55:00.001+08:00

One day before Chingay : Excited.

Catch the blueeeee pyjamas tomorrow & on saturday! :D

2009-01-24T18:45:00.012+08:00

Let pictures do the talking!

Lucien & XueJun - Communication Lesson

I will miss her smile

I will miss her calling me sayang!

I will miss her laughter

I will miss my ah beng brother

This was one time when sean was down. I look like that cos I just woke up!

oh man, I will miss camwhoring.

I will miss her going down for short breaks with me

We will miss lying to others that we're cousins

and also going down for short breaks

See,told you- camwhoring!

I will miss the girl power enterprise group!

I will miss my close friend, lucien wong ju sheng

So yesterday we took many many pictures, since it was the last day of school.
Officially graduated from year 1 (:

Nenie - Communications facilitator. I will miss calling her "cher" even though she will never reply till I call her "faci"! but she still loves me, i bet :P

Yenxi

Told you the class is boys deprieved. But these boys are awesome. I am so gonna miss them!

Noriz, Me, The boys(:

Angela!

Hazirah

Xuejun- my slut!

Elaine was bored.

Indah

Elaine.

Yanyan. I will miss her dancing because she always ends up losing and the class forfeits her

Jeremy

Nabilah! i will miss laughing like crazy with her.

Sayang sayang :)

I will miss snatching slides with her

Adam!

Joyhan!

JieMin. I will miss his never frowning mood.

SEAN!!! I will miss talking and pouring out everything to him. I will miss listening to his sorrows too.

Overall, a collage i did out of boredom.

Went to Clark Quay after Seoul Garden yesterday (the pics are in vivek's phone).

I love this boy tons :)

Oh yes, Chingay rehearsals. FUN FUN FUN :D the amount of jokes we make, I swear I laugh so much every rehearsal that my tummy hurts so badly after that.

I love.....

Meutia!

CONGRATS MEUTIA BABY! She won a prize for song lyrics :)

I need a dose of this girl, seriously.

So there you go. I am so happy its the holidays. Yet sad that there's no more w45h. :(

On the other hand, I know I have to come clean soon. I know I cannot hide it any longer because it'll upset you further. And no, I dont wanna do that.

CHINGAY PERFORMANCE ON THE 30TH & 31ST! drama members, we shall all give our best yea!

Aarti, Shaheedah, Meutia, Sylvia, Najiha, Shakila, Shuhui, Stella, Ryan! :D

W45H

2009-01-23T23:41:00.002+08:00

last day as a w45h-er.

Before I left class today tears welled up in my eyes. All that was running through my head was :

that was the last time I was going to walk out of that class
the next time I come back to school, my classmates are going to be different
No more games, jokes, laughter and fun with this class
No more blasting music and making people dance to it as forefeit
No more lemon biscuits in class
No more screaming out my unhappiness with the whole class around
No more Dr Shanthi, Rick Low, Gavin, Wendy Ang, Nenie teaching us
1 semester has passed so quickly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I swear I was nothing but sad. I'll miss this class sooo much because w45h has been there no matter what, no matter when.

Took pictures with everyone present today and boy, it was tough saying bye and leaving the class. But at least I hugged all of them goodbye! I am still thankful that in one way or another they were part of my life :]

As I logged into MSN today, I got this from Indah :

Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:43 PM:
hey aarti,
Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:43 PM:
during our turn to present the game,
Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:43 PM:
faci asked the whole class to join in
Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:43 PM:
so, whole class join in.
Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:44 PM:
i think it means our game is the funnest?
Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:44 PM:
=)
Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:44 PM:
nice job.!
Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:44 PM:
and, thanks for coming to my life at least once :)
Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:44 PM:
nice meeting you.
Macadah, WASH er. sent 23/1/2009 3:44 PM:
=]

Also, something from JieMin's blog :

I will miss Sean’s and Aarti’s awesome debates openers. Yes, we've done debates in class so many times and most of the time sean and I happen to oppose one another -_-

Jiemin continued with :

Aarti: Another of my really trusted friends whom I have no qualms about telling my secrets to. I’ll admit it, when I first knew you, I was quite intimidated because of your prowess in English. But as time passed, I realised, I didn’t need to be intimidated at all. As I told u before, u just give me the impression of trustability. I know I can rely on you if I need someone to listen to me =)

When my mind's been blank and emotion's been drained, all I need is one or two nice and touching words, I'll be fine (:

Pictures and some other entries will come soon. I swear my life's been a total disaster. I'll be back.

Thank you, my beloved W45H.

2009-01-20T12:04:00.004+08:00

School's coming to an end! in other words, I only have 3 more days as a w45h-ian! Surprisingly, this class has been so much better than I expected it to be. And I am proud to say that I have not regretted being part of w45h at all.

So much of fun we've had, I am sure of that. The times when I was down, they could tell. They would always without fail express that concern for me. This class has made school way better and they have made me feel that there is a whole new meaning to "a class". How much we've done/spoken/been there for one another is something which I'll remember clearly. Sadly, those days are coming to an end. As much as I hate to bid farewell to this class, it's part of RP's system to change classes every semester. I am sure to miss every passing moment I have fun with this class.

In the class, I am close to almost everyone. notice I said, everyone. there are some I am not close to, but I still thank them for being a part in my fun school life. :]

Lucien - Dude, I'll never forget all the times we've spent. the times when we used to disturb each other with bananas and apples and the times when we've played catching in class. The times when you've been there cheering me up, making me laugh. I will never forget when you were there during that one time when I really needed someone. You've given a whole new meaning to friendship. And you're that one boy that I have never seen sad. Angry, yes. but that too angry for me! How? How do I thank you? How can I every forget the times? Thank you, lucien. :)

Sean- My first close friend in w45h. I remember when we were in the same class for enterprise. You were the first to know so much about me. You were the one who could always detect when something was wrong. For all the times I've been there for you, it's always been my pleasure. For the times you returned the concern, i am really thankful. Do you remember how we used to sing in class? the bhangra songs I introduced you to? I'll never forget, sean :)

Jevini- Babe! I miss you so much, now that you've transferred out. luckily you only stop coming at the last week. school's just... different, without you! Remember all the gossips and laughters we've had? I've always treasured them. Being the only two indians, remember how we used to lie to facilitators that we were cousins? The times when you kept asking if I was okay. Damn, come back la at least for one day! i'll miss you, jevini.

Noriz- Sayang! You you you. How much nonsense we've spoken and done, I cannot even tell. We've just shared so much that it's impossible to not talk to you for one day. Even if its on msn, we just have to disturb one another. Remember during breaks when we would go out and chat? And you would pout your sorrows, I would pour mine? I've never been in the same group with you ever since shanthi thought we were noisy together, but that has never stopped us from being noisy. I hope you'll take care of yourself. I dont want to see you down, Noriz :)

JieMin- My pal! You're someone I'd go to when I need sweet :P I am glad to be of help when you needed help or someone to be there. And honestly, thank you for being there likewise. You would always pop up on msn and ask me to smile. I really appreciate that. With you around, because you're always smiling, it just gets so difficult to see you and frown. I know you're hurt but I really hope you get over it fast. I know you can. All the way, JieMin :)

Weiliang- My beng brother! Over time, we've grown closer to one another and Im glad to see you grow so much in your maturity level. I hope you'll stick with that good personality of yours. Nevermind if you fail but be sure to pick yourself up again. You rock, Weiliang.

Elaine- Babe! remember our cognitive group? All the laughters and girl problems we've shared? i'll always remember you as a friend I could look at when Im down. BECAUSE, whenever you look at me, you smile! goodness me, I so need your picture to look at :) Yay you, elaine. :)

Nabilah- LALA. You and your jokes which never fail to brighten my day :] thank you for hearing me out all the time and thereafter make jokes to make me laugh. Remember cognitive group? When we shared about everything under the sun? :) thanksss, nabilah. :)

Joyce- HEYHEY. my group mate. HAHA. it so happens that when im in science group that I tend to get a little emotional. Remember us snatching for slides? remember when we used to discuss everything and anything?When you told me all that you could? You are one strong girl that I think have a very good personality. My toilet friend!! keep that up, Joyce. :)

XueJun- SLUTTTT. Omg, we disturb each other in class and end up having so much to bitch and laugh about. When we were in the same group, we just have so much of fun. I do know sometimes you're sad but you tend not to show. I just hope you know I'll be there for you. My toilet friend!! Take care, XueJun. :)

Hazirah- Another lovely girl who never fails to ask if Im okay. I'll remember what you've said, always. You must take care too okay? :) I know there's so much more behind that smile and REALLY CUTE laughter. laugh always, hazirah. :)

Basically to who I wanted to say what, there goes. W45H, im really gonna miss all of you. loads. :) I know i've been that counsellor for so many of you. I hope what I've said/done has made an impact. And please take care of yourselves. LOVES!

You dont need a 1000 word long essay about us here. Just know you can count on us for talking rubbish through presentations after that covering our stupid mistakesby telling:

shanthi it was a typo error (and she will go, 'ya ya your class EVERYTHING IS TYPO)

wendy we thought we calculated the math stuff correctly (yes we think TOO much)

nenie that we prefer to comment rather than ask questions (YA LAH WE'RE LAZY SO WHAT)

gavin that he should release us early because he's damn hot (YES WE LOVE TO SUCK UP, we still rock!)

rick low we'll do good RJs if he promises to end class on time (OMG WE ARE BUSY PEOPLE LA)

W45H - DRAMA MAMAS!

You've been a great part of me, really.

broken.

2009-01-20T11:11:00.002+08:00

just as when I thought I could do it, I can't.

Being stuck in such a shithole, I HONESTLY HATE THE WAY MY LIFE IS NOW.

melodramatic

2009-01-16T11:28:00.004+08:00

I try with all my might to bring you that smile
the jokes the care the love all these while
you never knew how it felt
with all the tears i shed
i refused to tell because you havent shown you actually cared

How should I be?
Is it the truth I see?
I dont ask for much,
in fact for nothing at all
Ive never demanded for anything,
I gave what I could unconditionally
Undoubtedly I never had much to ask for, really
but now, if i could have one wish, just one...
it would be to have you to understand what Im going through,
after all security and trust is what I seek in you.

a special post for a special boy

2009-01-11T09:39:00.001+08:00

Nirmal Vivek Menon.

When we first met in w34h, owe it to the science group that we got to be so close to one another. All the nonsense, the jokes, the jealousy, the laughter, the fun! And then throughout the year, no doubt there were ups & downs but we've never given anything up for naught. here you go, dearest :

April 2008.

The very first pic we took together

May 2008.

When the whole class left enterprise to go play pool :D

June 2008.

When we got closer to one another. helping him get over all the ordeals, being there, likewise form his side too.

July 2008.

Unseparable. A few*ahem* tried with all their might, but to no avial. neh neh ni poo poo.

August 2008.

All the late nights in school, the going back together. I'll never ever forget.

September 2008.

Separated by classes, Bonded by the heart :)

October 2008.

Yeah we're that close. before taking this pic, we were playing with the chocolate fondue and strawberry and what nots. :) funfun.

November 2008.

Vivek Menon got treat - swensens ice cream lorrr. As we go on, we remember all the times we had together :D

December 2008.

My one and only Vivek Menon!

JANUARY 2009 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING BOY!

With you around, there is no end in laughing playing joking. You're the one boy I will always tresure and be there for. I still remember counting down to your birthday and now, in a blink of the eye, its over! I hope through this all you know how much you really mean TO ME. we may fight and quarrel and fight and quarrel but.. You're one boy I can take it all in with and then let it all out together with. You're a pleasure to have,a joy to be with, and a dear to keep.
I wish you all the best in everything you do.
& remember, we will still be this close forever!
Love you tons,aarti gupta (:

Planning of his birthday surprise with minyi and reshmi was HELL fun, I swear! Oh oh, what was even better was counting down with him and making him guess whatever that was going to happen.

So, on sunday met minyi vineeth and reshmi (in order) at paya lebar at cabb-ed to parkway parade to get the birthday boy an ice cream cakeee! After that, cabb-ed to euonos and time for surpriseeeeeeeeeee!

1. light the candles below the block

2. ask vineeth to take a video

3. decide whats gonna happen the moment the door opens

4. walk up the stairs

5. relight the candles (damn it, should have bought relighting candles instead and irritate him :D) 6. walk walk walk

7. all were saying "sing ah sing ah"

8. excitementttttttttt

9. okay ring the doorbell!

--- umm im thinking of 11 points haha---

10. Vivek Menon opens the door

11. Aarti, Reshmi, Minyi and Vineeth shouted Happy Birthday!

Cookies and cream - his favourite!

Vivek and his sweeet family :)

Reshmi, Minyi, Vivek, Aarti

Vineeth menon (:

All the love from us to him!

Escapeeeeee! before haunted house

First ride!

Before getting drenched!

All drenched and then on the roller coaster!

Vivek loved the go cart game, so did i! :)

see see see. set his pretty eyes on it! =)

HAHAHAHA.

One navigating the steering wheel and the other pressing the accelerator

nice view, no?

the feet that bind

this ferris wheel is in a shopping centre. damn cool!

on the way - vivek was guessing and guessing and guessing. he had no idea i swear :P

YEAHHH ended up and seoul garden!

11th january ended with a blast! =)

Just as when he thought it was overrrrr, it wasnt!

Planned for a surprise pizza hut dinner for him with reshmi, minyi and monessa.

Tuesday was equally fun. For this day, I hope vivek's hopes were fulfilled and I hope he enjoyed himself to the max! oh boy, dinner neoprints movie and all the secrets we hell fun! ;)

With that, I wish this dear boy of mine all the best in every thing he does. you know I love you.

sailing past 08, swimming into 09 :)

2008-12-31T15:10:00.004+08:00

Post Number : 100!

Just nice, ain't it? :) so in other words, when I post tomorrow, it'll be post number 101. wheee.

Alright right around this time of 2007 I was doing the exact same thing of recounting all that has happened through the year, making new year resolutions like everyone else did. But then again, I do have some resolutions which I failed to meet up to or should I say complete.

2008 was a year different from the rest for me. It was a real rollercoaster ride. I still remember how I was brought so high on some occasions and then thrown all the way down on some. Whatever it is, 2008 has thought me that life is not always as easy as it seems. I am still thankful for all the laughter and tears Ive had in the past year for this was what kept me going. I must admit I regret some actions of what I have done in 2008 and which has made me feel like a real fool, but then again - "learn and move on" like what you said.

All that I have to claim, I was made a stronger person when I had to deal with:

The loss of my grandfather

Shitty events throughout the year which I cant really spell out because they are like random stuff

Removing my wisdom tooth!!!!! OMGAWDDD

When i had to send you that sms.

The new & old friends all the same, I still love all of you and I would like to take this line of the whole entry to thank you for being part of me in any way you have. Whatever it is, the laughters cries fun jokes quarrels we've gone through you still mean alot to me - i can bet my pretty hair on this!

New year resolutions, you might be wondering?
Yeah I do have them but No im not posting it up this yearrrr

I know and appreciate all that Ive been through this crazy year :] With that, I pray and hope 2009 will be a better year. On a side note - I love the number 9, is that considered? :P

Love you people! (: Best wishes for 2 0 0 9!

xoxo, aaaaaarti gupta :D

2008-12-30T15:09:00.000+08:00

Two days to new year, I have stuff I wanna post about.

I'll do it tomorrow, I promise.

I WANNAAAAAAAAAAA BLOG

2008-12-14T20:52:00.013+08:00

So it's the holidays! (:

One week in Singapore and the remaining week will be away at Genting and Penang/Cameron. No, not hongkong. Plans changed. but heck, Im still looking forward to it! This is one year I must say that I have been going up & down to malaysia so many times. I myself lost count of it. Be it for shopping, pedicure&manicure, holidays whatever.my my!

Was looking through my archives and I realized I actually havent blogged about so many events lately. and yes I do know long wordy posts would stop people from reading (I know because I hate reading oh so wordy posts). But then it'd be impossible for me to recap all that has happened, I shall leave it to the pictures to do the talking.

Yes, im sure w45h has seeeeeen alot of this!

Hey babe, remember our promise!

Dr Shanthi write science stuff, we write lyrics!

Vivek Menon, I love vivek menon :)

Tilt your head for a bit, body of lies rocked!

OHMYGOD-ancient picture man! hongweiqian, which lesson was this? and hell, i miss laughing CRAZILY with you!

Zoo trip was honestly tiring but it was really really fun!

The laughters, the gossips - I'll never forget :)

Memories!

Drama mates can make me laugh like crazy and then cry it all out with me as well. yes, i love these girls. sylvia, we've to start taking more pictures (alone) hahaha

Meutia, please cheer up :) dont be affected by things which will bring you down alright? thanks for being there no matter what. you know I love you!

This very day we had so much of fun snapping pictures, playing and even "fighting" :D

Met up with Weiqian not long ago for dinner and shopping. Though it was short, we got to share so many things together and weiqian be strong:) ring me, anytime!

This girl, shaheedah, always makes me laugh like crazy. The nonsense she does is just way too unbelieveable. the late night talks the drama meetings the in between breaks meetup because we're in the same block :D I just need a dose of her when Im down, trust me.

Since now it's the 2nd round of holidays, I have better reasons to judge - yes sean and weiliang are indeed the two closer people I am to in the class (apart from girls of course). I may be considered the counselor but heck i'll always hear them out because they do too!

Lucien is a really entertaining boy. Oh yes, another close friend of mine in class. When I was so angry that day he was there to crack silly jokes which made me laugh. and all the bananas and apples jokes we have, man lucien you rock! "hiiiigh five!"

okay, it was just a post I feel like blogging :]

oh before I end of,

AARTI - after so long, MONESSA GOT IT! :D

one day so many emotions

2008-12-11T21:24:00.008+08:00

How nice it feels - sitting on a comfy sofa after a relaxing bath, eating ice pops, surfing the net and thinking of nothing at all. Ice pops - hahaha. I still love them till now :)

Other than today being a really boring day because it was Math module, I have to admit that boredom was compensated with the arrival of CUPCAKES!

Okay so here's the story. Vivek Menon found out my surprise (in case you didnt already know, he never ever allows me to keep secrets when it has got to do with him). Taking my phone and running away with it resulted in him finding out Im getting him his cupcakes by today 1pm. *shakes head. But nonetheless I told him to pretend to look surprised and I must say he did it very well! so he got the really nicely made cupcakes today and he loved it. That touched me really deeply because he is someone I would never get tired planning surprises for. Anything can happen, nothing is pulling us apart.

Pretty and Yummy :)

Smile like that always,boy!

That aside, I was asked a question just now : "aarti will you ever take up nursing?" before I could give my straightaway NO, someone answered for me - "aarti and nursing?! omg never ever man. all that a nurse has to do, aarti will be the last person. hahahhaa true true, I do agree. But then again when my grandfather used to be alive, I did all I could, I offered all I could, I shared all I could, I gave all the love I had. And what I did, I am so proud of myself. I guess you really have to have the love to perform. And yes I do find old people very cute but the bad thing about me - I have no patience. yeah lah, spoilt, pampered. go ahead, I nod in agreement.

Okaaaaay, Im basically done blogging for today :)

i need to get it out of me

2008-12-10T22:48:00.005+08:00

New layout and I must admit Im pretty much in love with it - which is definitely a good thing because then it would save me the time to fuss over which blogskin to choose, and when to find the time to change the layout and so on. So I guess Im sticking to this until I find a better one which catches my eye.

Went to KL over the weekend and of all places,all people I saw Ashley Tan Wei Jie in Sunway Lagoon! hahahaha. Omg. we couldnt stop laughing because the thing is, we're so caught up with our own things in Singapore that we barely meet or chat anymore and we end up meeting in Malaysia. Overall the trip was fun. Looking forward to the next one. HongKong from 23rd - 28th of this month! :)

Yesterday was rather fun because I had Jevini in the team. and that calls for gossips! she practically knows quite a number of things so its a breeze sharing things with her. Oh we got to choose our own teams for Science yesterday but still dr shanthi refuses till the end to let Noriz and I be together. Well I guess its detrimental to her ears putting us together because we 'never do stop talking' as claimed by dr shanthi :) So it pretty much led to me sharing stuff with Jevini. Funny thing was that, that didnt keep me seated in my seat. Was still playing with lucien and chatting with weiliang, joyhan, jiemin (because his voice resembles the voice I had when I lost my voice :D), sean and adam. Yeah that pretty much rounds up the guys in my class. a total of 8 boys and 18 girls. No the class is not quieter because we're boys deprieved because the class girls are equally havoc! You tell me what you would say about truth or dare, dancing in class, picnics, playing and screaming? You think you can do better then that's your problem, I won't ask for your signature.

oh oh before leaving class, we were making fun of elaine's shirt. In the front it had the words, 'beware of the copycat' and at the back ' Yes its YOU'. So me sean and elaine were led on to a topic which has always been bugging me and they hear it every time I whine :) Had drama meeting and then had a nice long chat with meutia. I hope she feels way better after everything.

Today was equally nice. Inititally had something really nice planned out but due to some unforseen circumstances it had to be cancelled. :( I was damn sad and shatterd - in case you didnt already know i get very sad when plans which I look forward to gets cancelled at the very last minute) Then again, I have to be understanding and I think whatever happened was wayyy important to settle than mine. Anyway it'll be postponed till tomorrow. Not really an issue then.

Ten reasons why Im so messed up :
1. I've hurt someone emotionally and I dont know how to apologize
2. I dont know how I feel sometimes
3. I know there's enterprise UT tomorrow and I studied nuts
4. My gums are hurting real bad !%#$@^@&
5. I dont like Math lessons and tomorrow's module is math argh.
6. When I think of something which upsets me, my mood turns bad for so long.
7. I can do stupid things to make people laugh when they are sad but when I am sad, its so difficult to make me smile.
8. Easy doesn't exist in life's equation.
9. I want to say something but I cant.
10. I dont like the way things are.

Few days back I had the phrase, "if I said Im not fine, would you ask why?' maaaan I had so many people telling me they would :) that really touched me deeply! and I love it when I know there're people there. Sometimes you just need to feel secure!

So tomorrow shall be it. time to 'be surprised' hahaha.

I almost screamed at your face

2008-12-05T11:15:00.000+08:00

And then when I wonder what would happen if I decided to play along.

Sometime within these 2 weeks, I have been facing quite alot of unexpected incidents and I guess I owe it to being as sarcastic as I can be for the benefit of myself, sometimes.
WHO IN THE WORLD WOULD BE BOTHERED, I wonder. Sometimes when others claim that people should not be so childish, it would do the person some good to think back and see how childish he/she can get.

I would have been so angry that I would turn away from you
it would have made me so irritated that I would never wanna talk to you again

oh cripes, i dont like you!
oh shit on toast, please stay away from me!
oh damn and blast, I HATE YOU!

On a lighter note, W45H has been really hyper the past few days. Oh yes, there's only 2 groups today which means we're gonna be done superrrr early :)

TGIF. going over to malaysia for the weekend and then again its back to school on tuesday.

Haha, you know its so funny when some people try to get all the attention in the world but actually get none at all.loser!

2008-11-17T14:49:00.005+08:00

Been such a long time since I updated this dying.rotting.dusty. blog.

Yes, so many things have been going on that I honestly dont know where to start. So many things to say but its actually all disorganized thoughts and I really dont know where to start.

Insane, I'd say. Anyway, today class was very fun - even though there was something which affected me quite a bit from the end of first meeting to mid second meeting. Truth or Dare was something that got the whole class laughing like crazy kids. But oh well, it was hell loads of fun, so nothing really matters.That period of laughing did do some good to the horrible emotions that were running through me.

You know sometimes they say talking to someone could make you feel all better. But how much are you willing to reveal? Each passing day, a new problem arises. I have to admit admist all these, there are things which get a tad too disturbing and annoying.

Oh well, part and parcel of life. Actually, I must admit talking to my mother yesterday made me feel a whole lot better. I dont know why but she just makes it seem like everything seems so simple - something which took me so long to get out of me and she just had to say "its okay, it was right" AND I FELT SO MUCH BETTER. FUYO. the power of my mother.

and and and I am so glad 2008 is coming to and end. there are so many things in 2009 that I cannot wait for. ahem vivek menon, you getting my hint? :):)

I guess i'll leave this random post as it is. :) I shall end off with some pictures!

Sean :)

Long story behind this necklace :)

& shaheedah, yes I know you know I know you know I dont like you know. haha.

" i dont like people with wide faces whose smile looks like they're frowning :)" - sean wong xin yao

replies to tags

2008-10-30T16:59:00.003+08:00

meu: baby, imy, meet soon, rmbr lour lunch dates!
meu: *our
meu: n i don't see my link
meu: n , what happened to the "i'll tear ur tshirt n bite ur hair off"? rawr!
Yes darling im still gonna tear shirts and bite hair! i miss you too. haha. linked :) lovelovelove

siewhong: finally you updated your blog huh ! hahas, hmmm, i dont know what had happened but be sure that we will be there for you when you need us love you girl !
Only to have it dead again! haha:) thanks babe. I love you!

yenxi: hi aarti! w45h ahlian!
yenxi: she say one mah! right aarti?
Hello! yup, right. haha

elaine: how come aarti is ahlian?
Scold bad words manymany HAHAHA. remember that!

Sean: dont try to read you. ='[
Yea goodfriend! all the crapping in class, laughing, playing, joking, theres more to it! haha. :) miss you!

XUEJUN: AHHAAA. YES TODAY WAS FUN(: imma your slut, remember. LOLL~
XUEJUN: LINKY ME TOO(:
Definitely! haha. YES SLUT I LOVE YOU

Nick: lols sis i understand abit nia.... lucky i have a good foundation in lit sia LOLS time will heal all wounds i guess?? whever in doub talk to the wall =X it helps =) take care....
OMG NICHOLAS MOK WEN HAO I MISS YOU SHIT LOADS. hahaha. :) i hope it does! you take care too. talk to you online!

weiliang: Ah lian and ah beng of W45H ROX!!!!
HAHA. YESSS AHBENG. IM MISSING YOU!

IM 17!: Woohoo!
woohoo nabs! hope you enjoyed :D

yenxi: aarti your banana thing is really aiyoyoyo..tsk tsk
hahaha. lucien's gonna get it lah!

[S]hikito: hi stinky!!i miss u. roar. whn are u gonna eat icecream w me. meow
haha. miss you too! soon i promise! lovelove

seri: i missed u babe!
honey i miss you loads too! <3

naj! nudge!!: AAAaaaRRRTTTTIIIII!!!
NUDGENUDGEEEE :D

zai: babe...... i miss you baby girl!!!!!!!!
zai: yeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
hey sweets! miss you too :) all the best for anchor project!

yenxi: i tagged the class blog. you turn now!(;
yea, i did :)

Vivek: boo
hello darling :D

ashley: yes, you're right, just eight nos away...
yep! hahaha.

burn burn burn

2008-10-30T16:57:00.001+08:00

omg, this blog is dead man.

thank god for the tagboard.

I have so much to blog about but where do I start?

I'll be back.

almost everything.

2008-10-07T10:34:00.008+08:00

School today is damn fun. As im typing this, there are so many people laughing behind me. My class is so on the topic of bananas today! Omg, horny class AND WE'RE LOVING IT :P

HAHA.

Elaine, me weiliang and arshad are in a team and omg weiliang is scared of me and elaineeeeeeee! all we need to do is go, 'weilianggggggggggg...." and he'll say ok to anything we ask for or not he becomes a victim! This class is sooo funny really.

And lucien and me have been going on and on and on about bananas today and the faci thinks we're crazy pervetic people. HAHA. omg, lucien youuuuuu better listen to me if not i'm starting the banana thing again!!

Its Math today and its kinda okay :) at least we didnt get questioned sooo much. and im doing some puzzle wordsearch from sean. omg, so entertaining :D im faster than you sean, dont try to challenge you're so gonna lose :)

Okayyyy, so today :

Happy Birthday darling sylvia! Stay happy alright! will be here for you no matter what! Enjoy your birthday, dear!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABYYYY BABYYYYY. :D we joke sooo much in class and end up laughing like crazy people. fun ah! Seventeen already ( i know! finally right ) <3>

HAHA AH BENG, you know we're still good siblings:)

Goodfriend, dont be naughty. no blackmailing nonsense ahhh!

This group joked so much with dr shanthi yesterday:)

NABILAH! how much we laughed before taking this pic, you remember? :)

DEAREST SLLLLLUT <3

just let me rant, tyvm.

2008-10-05T23:07:00.003+08:00

this post is going to make no sense to any of you so you can skip this entry, really. but if you're gonna read on dont blame me for being so confusing, you've been warned.

I was once person A. so when the same thing is happening now,I know exactly how it feels. So what now? think and think and think and get depressed over and over again? what.is.the.point, really? pondering over it so much - does it get anything anywhere? So much of unsettled emotions which draws me so close to screaming my lungs out and just pulling my hair off. there's a sky of things I wanna let out from myself but who - to who would I really wanna tell it to? there are friends Im really close to and I know I can count on them when I need someone to talk to but how am I going to bring about this topic? if I had an idea,I wouldnt be the way I am today. What happened to 'letting go?' what happened to 'im not going to give a damn?' it was all a bucket full of lies. I never was able to put down that baggage of unhappiness because it's eating me up down left right inside out. this unutterable emotions clogged up in me makes me feel like crying every single time. But to what extent? For how long more? Why do I have to be stuck in a situation like this - it was a situation I never thought was so impactful. I always thought people who felt like that were so lame, were attention seekers. Now I know how it feels. the feeling is horrible. every time I think about it, it leaves a screaming emptiness within me.

Its aarti gupta we're talking about here. Someone who never used to get affected by teeny weeny things like that. Wait, I take that back. this whole situation is not teeny weeny. I rephrase that : Someone who never used to get affected by things like that. So why all of a sudden? It scares me really to know how much I go through but am still not able to express myself in words because its not as easy as reciting ABC. I am someone who can express myself very very very well but I DONT KNOW WHY FOR THIS STUPID SHITHOLE IM STUCK IN, IM....STUCK. I cant seem to find words to replace the way I feel. I guess I can only talk to the person who is in this with me (I doubt the person even knows). My close friends only know bits and pieces of the whole story and when we randomly joke about it - its a joke and laugh off matter but the thing is I never really told them it was such a facade I was putting up all these while. I never laughed sincerely when this matter was brought up because I know only I know how it feels.

I hope its not retribution. I know im not supposed to be so bitter towards a particular someone but I really can't help it anymore. Seeing everything just going on like that - damn it Im making second guesses all the time and its getting very annoying. Im getting sick and tired of it. Its either I stop thinking so much about it or I put a fullstop to it.

Dear God......

2008-10-01T00:38:00.002+08:00

DEAR YOU,
I DONT LIKE YOU I DONT LIKE YOU I DONT LIKE YOU OKAY. HALT SEEKING ATTENTION ALRIGHT? YOU ARE SO SO SO SELF CENTERED AND ALL YOU DO IS PICK ON THE FLAWS OF OTHERS - COME ON MISS-IM-EVERYTHING-THE-WHOLE-WORLD-REVOLVES-AROUND-ME, YOUR ATTITUDE IS DISGUSTING. SO WHAT IF YOU THINK YOU ARE SO WELL LIKED? NOTICE I USED "YOU THINK". FAR BE IT FROM ME TO IMPUGN THAT ATTITUDE OF YOURS, BUT I REALLY CANT STAND YOU. YOUR INFANTILE CHARACTER MAKES ME WANNA JUST SIT BACK AND LAUGH RIGHT INTO YOUR FACE WHEN YOU SAY SOMETHING WHICH YOU THINK IS SO COOL. OH PUHLEASE.

DEAR MUSLIM READERS,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA<3

tiara - the anagram of aarti(:

2008-09-29T11:18:00.004+08:00

I know its such a random title but thinking about it just makes me happy. my name's an anagram to tiara. shut up if you dont think its cool or anything. I LIKE IT. okokok?

Anyway, I was in a rush to leave house today when this box in which I keep all the letters I've received caught my eye - be it from guys/girls. And honestly, I stopped rooted to the ground. this particular letter which I wrote say about a month back came back to my mind. One of the most heartfelt and touching one i would say. and to the person who got it, please know how much you mean to me (: Im not writing your name here but if you're reading this, I meant every single word I wrote in that letter. every.single.word.

---break---

Its like 2:43pm and 3rd meeting has started. One team to go before its my turn to start talking crap for my slide - I honestly have no idea about today's topic at all. IM SO SCREWED FOR UT. yeah perhaps during presentation I shall use my favourite word to save me from questions - "typo" and my science facilitator will go "aarti, how can everything be typo" and there goes the class laughing again.

Kay shaheedah, we're both dead for UT!

During lunch break earlier, met sylvia shaheedah and meutia. meutia darling thanks so much for the cookies. VERY NICE :D oh and these girls made my day! laughing like crazy people. omg bitches I love you girls alot! remember wiggley wiggley wiggley boom ok! and remember the whiny tone we have as OUR trademark (ahem). And we're going for Hallowscream together! sylvia choose your character soon babe :DD

I LOVEEEEEEE YOU GIRLS ALOTALOTALOT!

And if you're wondering why Im in such a jovial mood, I only have to say : no im not. Im honestly not anything in the best of moods probably because Im having so many unsettled issues which are driving SEAN crazy. well, sorry sean but you better not complain since I intro-ed so many nice bhangra songs to you!:) you better not complain if not................

Jeez, time to present. hello w45h, here comes QUEEN OF BULLSHIT!:)

i'll get well when september ends

2008-09-27T13:37:00.002+08:00

SEPTEMBER HAS BEEN ONE HELL OF A MONTH MAN.

nothing and I repeat NOTHING'S been going right. other than w45h making me laugh time and again during lessons, everything else is so screwed up. First seeing a medical doctor becuase I had fever that went up to 40 degrees and all the other nonsense (sore throat, headache yadayada) then it was the removal of the wisdom tooth which caused me hell loads of pain! then it was time and time again quarrelling and quarrelling becuase of STUPID AND BASELESS REASONS. and now, im not feeling well again. Im just so glad that september's coming to and end. I pray and hope october will be a better month :(

I reached home at around 930 last night after bathing and everything, I just fell asleep WITHOUT DOING MY RJ OMG. AND I WAS LATE FOR SCHOOL YESTERDAY. JEEZ I THINK SHANTHI'S GIVING ME 'F' FOR YESTERDAY'S LESSON. oh god, i hope she sympathizes with me and she feels that im a really good child who would give my best during lessons and I will stop laughing and laughing in class and i will talk lesser during lessons YES YES EVERYTHING JUST DONT LET HER GIVE ME 'F' :(

Talk about laughing and laughing - w45h is already blending in well. all the singing of songs during lesson time and all the endless photo taking and there's mass conversation every friday night. LOL. Well Sean and me are practically the ones who insult each other so much in class but at the end of the end end up singing together. I think my science facilitator thinks im very naughty (hahaha - what a joke I know). bet with my pretty hair she still loves me:D

i think i need to meet shaheedah meutia and sylvia soon. supposed to be going out with them today but with my hopless body in such a sick state, im giving it a miss. my body is really going haywire. freaking annoying.

I can take it all in and then let it all out

2008-09-21T15:59:00.010+08:00

Eliza Tan Xun San turned 17 yesterday:) Hey doll, I hope you enjoyed yourself!

I swear I miss them sooo much. The laughters and everything just make me want to go back to being in secondary school again. theresa,you should've been there :(

Reshmi and Minyi know how much of nonsense I can get up to :P

Omg, my favourite man!

Ice chocolate chip blended. Vanilla something. Java chip ice blended ( I think)

Jevini I hope you're okay :) And thanks for hearing me out the other day. you rock babe!

HAHA NORIZ YOU REMEMBER WHAT INSPIRED THIS PICTURE?

My group for Science (HAHAH WE TALK NONSENSE HALF THE TIME)

Shi Min! You better remember our inspiration for school!:DD

Keep that a secret okay, elaine :D hahaha.

So its been some time since I got down to some proper blogging.

September has been one hell of a month for me, honestly. It all started with falling sick and then the removal of the wisdom tooth. yikes. all the pain I been through the whole of this month - dont even ask. Never in my wildest dream I though I would be able to withstand so much of pain.

Nonetheless, with the new semester kicking off - new classmates, new facilitators, new classroom! I guess in the class the people Im closer to are : Sean, Jevini, ShiMin, Noriz, Elaine, Weiliang. Yeah very cool people I must say. then there's nabilah who's very cheerful as well :) the class is no doubt getting closer and now they're in the process of making a class jacket. hoho. I guess the thing to get used to about is changing class every semester. oh well. But I still miss w34h though. I honestly miss them alot. Lesson's have been pretty alright but faciliators are really very strict with daily grades. sigh :( Motivation to work harder, perhaps?

As for drama peeps, met up with shaheedah meutia and sylvia to catch up with one another and I think it was really nice :) Honestly, we do so much of nonsense together including going against one another together in a joking manner. and vivek was there, he went all crazy wondering if we really meant what we said to one another. but still, we love one another like crazy and you have to see the mass conversations we have cos all of us are in different classes! omg, my hilarious bitches.

Oh and I met stacey after eons! Hey my bimbo thanks lah!

the laughters.

the jokes.

the craps.

the nonsense.

the secrets!

haha. we still have yet to go out for dinner one day ok!

And reshmi and minyi,

thank you for all that you two have done when me and vivek were quarrelling.

I know how difficult it was to get us to be talking again but Im so happy the two of you didnt give up.

Haha, you girls rock lah really! thanks so much :)

Yeah, I guess that's about it. Eh, september is coming to an end. JEEZ. time really passes damnnnnnnnnnn fast!

tell me why, again?

2008-09-13T13:18:00.004+08:00

Addictive content in my personality is 91%

Beware!!! people easily get addicted to me

Tell me, have you ever felt like you are immersed in so much of thoughts that sometimes you just wish casting a magic spell would do you some good? The worst thing of it all is that these thoughts just dont go away. As much as I want to appear to seem happy, excited about everything, as much as I want to feel I have been so lucky for all that has happened and not happened, everything basically everything. but then, why do I feel like as though admist these all something is still missing?

Damn it, I sound depressed. But people get easily addicted to me!:)

Oh lord, I just realized I havent replied tags from eons ago.

elaine: nice & amazing post!! guess why? cause it features ME!! ^^

Haha. yeah (: The pictures are so cool!

sylviaaaa: hello biatch.. IMY<3
Hey biatch! IMYT<3!

elaine: girl u rocks!
You rock too!:)

zrah: hey . link me up. (=
Linked =)

MINYI: I LOVE YOU!!Thx for such a great comment for me being ur friend....well...you rock
Haha. i know! :D love you loads!

amanda: hahaha heyyyyyy lovely. amanda prabhu here. =) miss you very much! how are you????????? drama queen, finally, ive bin waiting. =)
hahaha. im okay how're you? yeah! dramaqueeeeeeeeeeeeen man!:D

noriz;: link me dearies ! ((:

But you moved? haha.

vivian: heyhey dearest, relinkked ^^
thanks dear girl!<3

NIck: haha finally i tot u will put aartiisthebest.bs.com haha =) take care dont emo!!!
Haha no lah pls! what emo? AIYO

Jevini: Aarti gupta's so loved by me even if I have known her for just 3 days! And “sexy, wild &sweet” blog u’ve got, aarti!
Hey baby! youre loved by me tooooo! haha thanks!

Sean: u r linked
You're linked too:)

kephren: AHHHHH!. my fingers hurt. i am typing. and i am tagging. and it hurts. AHHHHHH!
Yeah, like finally ehhh! but thannnnnks for tagging:)

❤ SA: hey hey hey MISS GUPTA!! hahah, seeeya tomorrow!! Thanks for the super sweet note darl! Loveyouuu tons! seeya seeya!!
Hey babe! haha it was nice meeting up right? haha no prob! love you too!

wai yuen: why ur photo got jietong face but don have his name? anyway.. hi
haha. erm. HI!

ashley: haha.. spotted my name...:)
yeah (:

siewhong: i love you girl ! you can count on me too !! hahas !! <33
Love ya!

Jiaqi: and aww i spotted my name . haha you did miss me ? awww . i miss hitting you lah . and lying on your shouldersssssss . LOL .
Yeah:) all those times! haha.

wai yuen: hmmm... that photo below you and weiqian.. that guy besides you looks incredibly hot.. don sad la nick, ray and teck.. hi aari..

Err, yeah sure. tsk!

haz1: AARTI! lol W4! darn far sia if late. but nvm. LVL 3 FOOD HAVEN! Lol
hahah. yeah man! hope youre doing good in class!

wei yi: arrti help desk=X
HAHA whaaaaaaat!

pam: hello girl:) miss ya..take care and catch up sum time..lots of things to share:)
hey babe! yes we must! ALOT.

menon: Love u!
Hey, I love you too!

wei yi: meow meow!

Yesyes!

samanthssss: yaa, my first reaction was really, "aaarthhuuu!" hahaha gonna miss you so much man, my dear first friend of w34h! take care okkaayy? lets have a class outing soon =D
Haha, uh huh. where you? so longggg since i spoke to you:(

teck cheong: HELLO!!! Glad that i am in the list. But why no pic one?? haha =)
Haha. er, i dont have a pic with you also lah!

staceyy: you better meet me up babe! if not i'll jsut rape you upside down. hahahahahaha i have like 123456789 things to tell you!GF, AAP! YOU SUPER MISSED!and LOVED!
YEAH WOMAN. hahahah we'll bitch rapeeee! i have 1234567777888999 things to tell you too:) finally saw each other on the same level! ;D

seri: http://ri-sae.livejournal.com
seri: aww. thats so sweet of you my dear. please make your way to my blog yeap? muahs!
yay! i saw it. so super sweet. love you tons!

eliza: AARTI AARTI AARTI!!!!!!haha..i look retarted in the picture larx!!haha..yeah..everything about me you also know..thanks for everything girl! =) loveyou
hahha:) the pic is nice! no prob. love!

Nick: eh why my name up there but no picture sia.... haha i think i nvr take pic with u b4 LOLS haha take care... life is still like that after all u said haha
hahaha no pic with you! haiyo dont emo!

dRey: hahas.. lastly, l0ves!! If u need me, just call me.. hahas!! kkays.. enj0y ur h0lidays!!
HEYS!! been long since the last time i came here!! Nice posts and hahas, i do remember those times of 'bullying' aarti girl!! miss those times~~ hahas.. keep in touch n yea meet sometime barhx!!
hahah! aww, i miss you sooo much! meet soon yea? <3

Raymond: walau eh, u mentioned wai yuen, n even mention teck cheong's name, but nv say mine...sobs sobs, i muz hv been a bad fren

errm haha.

sandhya: is it just me or has menon's way of smiling-with pursed lips-possessed me?eeeeeeeiyer!!such bad habits!!hahahahaha

i dont know you answer that! haha.

new mates (:

2008-09-12T09:09:00.005+08:00

Hello elaine and jevini, i love you both :)

no, we still cant get enough of pictures.

Tell me whats better than a day in class with these 2 girls (:

JEVINI BABY!:)

Elaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiineeee, we laugh alot together<3

I hate it when I sign into blogger with the mindset of wanting to blog but on the other hand, like now, I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE TYPING ANYMORE. so please come back again. I promise I'll blog real soon.

SEAN, THANKS AH.

2008-09-08T11:57:00.004+08:00

here's for you sean!

stop it im removing my stitches today so you have no more chances to disturb me with the way I speak. YOU WAIT YOU WAIT YOU WAIT.

but on account of you helping out for math, you rock this once. TOMORROW YOU WATCH IT. GRRR.

"It's the friends you can call up at 4am that matter" - Marlene Dietrick

2008-08-22T13:45:00.015+08:00

I promise Ive been wanting to blog like since last week, but procastination got the better of me. So here it is, an update when im sitting on my comfy sofa listening to some really nice songs, thinking of so many things I actually wanna accomplish and of them all, bringing a post dedicated to my close friends. Dont ask me why such an update, because I just feel like having such an update. Ten years from now (if I actually still have this blog) I would look back and reminisce the times I spent with all those who meant so much to me. Of course I hope we would keep in touch but who can actually tell what's going to happen? It was the same case back then in primary school when everyone was leaving each other. "we must keep in touch, meet up okay!" But the thing is, with all the hectic schedules, who's bound to make time for trivial stuff with minimal gains (of seeing your primary school mate). and then we drift. Sad, aint it? And i really dont wanna part with some friends I have.

[the order is in alphabetical order :)]

Audrey: Girl! where are youuuuuuuuuuuuu? if you happen to pass by the blog, tag me and let me know you're here! do you remember the times we spent during physics lesson when you would make me laugh like a mad girl? and then you would pull my long ponytail! haha, and during chemistry when we would talk about stuff? How we used to play together during PE lessons? (: I really miss those times with you, audrey! we should hang out sometime soon yea? love!

Ashley: haha, yeah ashley! we've been friends since sec 2 and youve been there to hear me out when I had troubles. Dooood, you should learn to calm down sometimes! dont get so angry over trivial stuff! haha. theres so much more to a person like you know um, people you get so impatient with. Yeahhh. All the best with studies!:)

Eliza: Hello sweetie. Haha, tell me what we havent spoken about, will you? there's nothing I can think of. All your 'so angry' moments over the phone. those that made me laugh. And also, when you had such a hard time getting over your past relationship. You're unique on your own and I really wanna thank you for being there all these while. I mean, i only got to know you in sec 3 from complete strangers to besties, its really awesome. remember the night when you did me a favour of messaging someone? It really meant alot. Different school now, but the bond between us remains. calls,smses,msn - no they just wont stop. no matter, what i'll be there :) we'll meet really soon, Im missing you truckloads! xoxo.

Kephren: Hello. :) Though I only got to know you this year, isnt it amazing how we share so much in common? I really wanna thank you for the listening ear you always provide. Every-single-aarti-is-going-to-break-down-anytime-soon-can-someone-please-hear-me-out-time. It really means alot when you would just let me rant on and on and on. And then you would make it seem like things are so simple and easy. Especially when my granddad passed away. you were the strong shoulder I could count on. I really cant tell you how thankful I am for that, really. Also, the fact that I have given you shitty attitude so many times and you still tolerate them, thanks so much. But whatever it is, you know i'll always be here when you need someone. love you!

Larry: How are you mun! I miss the times we would emcee together in secondary school! haha. remember how we used to do the scripts and all the jokes we made out of them. tsk! then i would make fun of the way you pronounce certain words and vice versa! omg, and yes the time at Singapore Poly when I fell you lent me those humongous but very comfortable slippers of yours, you rock lah. & you fixed my camera for me when the screen went blank. Hahaha, I remember all the good things you've done because its easier to remember them as compared to those "larry is being naughty" moments. HOHO. Meet up soon, yes!

Minyi: Sweetheart! You are one girl I really really admire. Your strong personality, your cheerful character, you sweet attitude. You are so sociable, I can't even imagine. I've shared so much with you as a close friend and I am honestly so glad I have a friend like you. You seem to smile almost every single time. even when you are sad you would laugh. Oh god, where do I find such a friend? A friend whose smiles and laughter are so contagious? Who would make me laugh even when things seem to keep going wrong? Thank you dear girl. :) loveeee!

Nicholas: Bro! I hope you're doing good. Youre one boy who get affected very very easily. Try to look at things in a brighter view than to always think of it so pessimistically, alright?:D I've given you the advice I can and I really hope they help! please be strong and pull yourself together!

[picutre to be inserted when i find one:)]

Pamela: Bestie since sec one. :) I still remember all the longgggg phone calls we used to make to one another and share about anything and everything? And when we found out we were both Geminis. The times when we spent out birthdays together. When you used to confide in me about how down you felt and you were there for me when I needed someone - in fact you have always been there. Then in sec 2 we were so afraid we might go to different classes. but then again, we stood by one another got into the same sec 3 class and this strong friendship is still as it is today :) Pamela, heres a tight hug! i miss you so much! love!

Rebecca: darling! thanks for all that you've done:) I remember when we were in the same group for culture and from there we got along so well. thanks for all the laughters, dearie. and oh the make up you did during my drama performance. haha, it was awesome. You rock! anything anytime, i'll be here for you alright. love you loads xoxo

Siewhong: Dearest, we've been friends since sec 1. Do you still remember how we used to joke around with Johnson Bay and laugh for one whole hour during english lessons and then miss lim would think we were crazy? and how we used to talk on the phone every night without fail? And then when people came in between us we were not physically close but emotionally we were still there for one another. The stupidest quarrel in sec 4, was pure torture. You're a girl with whom Ive share so much with. Im glad the class gathering got us back so close. though we're in different schools now, this friendship will remain as strong as it has always been - count on me, when you need someone. Loveee you!

Stacey: SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP SAP.

Tell me what rubbish have we not done when we're together? How we used to play during assembly both in the morning and afternoon, and then we used to talk about anything and everything and then there was this once this teacher was so angry with us and yet we were so mean. haha. Remember that time when we went to bugis and went round and round and round becuase we wanted to see what happen to some girl who got caught? and then in the mrt we blew at each other's faces and took so many retarded pictures which got people staring at us like we're wierd. Those gossips, the little talks - were awesome i tell you. Then when we saw each other at causeway point of different occasions, how we screamed and bitch raped each other respectively! ohhh and you remember when either one of us got so angry we would call each other and screamm on the phone. woman i miss you sooooo much la! No matter what, you know

i'll be here<3

Samantha: SAMANTHSSSS:D when you read this you would go, 'aaarthuuuuuu' haha. yeah babe. my first friend in w34h! You know quiet a number of things right! you're one girl whom I feel very comfortable talking to =) remember all that has happened? the talks we had in class at the staircase in the library? whatever it is, do take care of yourself. I dont wanna see you get hurt again okay? you've to be strong and stay happy, dear girl! love!

Sandhya: BITCH DEAREST:D where do I even start? Punjabi school when we were in Primary six? HAHAHA! For as long as I've known you, you're one girl whom I could have all the fun in the world with and then cry it all out together with. The way we gossip on the phone, someone should try beating the records! for times we've been there for one another the best is laughing over it when the whole situation is over (I KNOW YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT HAHAHA). But nonetheless, we've shared smiles, laughters, worries and even problems, and I want you to know, no matter what i'll be here for you :) much loves!

Seri: USM! omg you remember thaaaaaaaaaaaat? :D OMG SERI I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH! do you remember during summer camp when we went out shopping together? Spent so much of fun times together and even in SC played and joked around. then we used to tell one another soooooo much about this person, that person. Oh man! i really miss hanging out with you! we must meet soon! love you,rap!

Shikin: woman! long time since I met you. Dont think so much and take life one step at a time alright. Dont overstress yourself. Im sure you'll achieve all your dreams in time to come you capable girl:) you too have been there to hear me out when i needed you:} thanksssss! love!

Theresa: GIRLFRIEND:D hahaha. i spent all the auntie times with you! the aiyoh(s), aiyah(s), tsk(s) with you! i still remember how we used to be the more emotional ones of the group. those times when we shared the tears, the laughter, the secrets:D you remember how you use to say 'AARTI GUPTA!?' and then i would be like, 'yes YIQUAN?' hahahah. i cant stop laughing at those times, really. I still remember when you cried once on the phone - and then i made you laugh haha. girlfriend, i'll be there for you no matter what, any time okay. love you truckloads.

Vivek: Menon dearest, my superdupermegaultra close friend. We've only known each other for like 5 months now and you've been there through ups and downs. youve seen me laugh you seen me giggle youve seen me tear whats worse you even saw me cry so bad. but you were there to console me (even though you suck at it, hahaha). still it is, very very much appreciated. This friendship is treasured so much that even when either one of us get angry with one another (which normally doesnt happen) we cant stay angry for long. Nonetheless I've seen all that has happened to you (you know what i mean) and you know i've proven that every single time things dont look too good for you, i'd be there to share your problems with you:). the time when you were sick? Thank God for a friend like you. Also, YOU ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS would accept those pms moments I had without complaining or quarrelling back. Do you remember the other day at vivo city- you better remember it clearly because I gave you a memorable moistured sock to bring home:P love you, boy<3

Weiqian: Quackkk! OMG you can make me laugh with all the nonsense you do! haha, thanks

dearest for all the smiles and laughters! that time when something happened opposite school, you helped me counter it so strongly when the rest were so shock. Being the girl you are, you just have the ability to make someone laugh no matter how down they are. that mischievious character of yours, damn cute!:D hahaha. then when we had that quarrel and they asked us talk it out, we burst out laughing instead. how we laughed at one another but mean no harm at all. Jeez, just reminded me of the time when we played 'SPY' do you remember? do you do you do you? HAHA i love you quack!

Waiyuen: Hello dooooooooood. youre the one who cracks the jokes and brighten the day with all the smiles you create. the fun times spent with you will NEVER be forgotten. And like, basically the times in lit lessons im sure you will never forget them as well. Youre one friend that everyone needs to have!

Okay im done. These are those who are close to me, really close :) There are friends like jamal, sarhan, hannan, aidil, virgilio, jiaqi, weijun, teckcheong all whom have been there and are really awesome friends:)

Some other random pictures:

During the drama performance (above two pictures)

;this is such a friends-dedicated post:)

when the term comes to and end...

2008-08-11T12:12:00.002+08:00

... lesser and lesser people turn up for lessons. because you see only 14 grades are computed so people tend to skip the last two weeks of school. so uncool. but nonetheless,they're ordering pizza as a get together with the class mentor whom we only got to know - when was it again? umm, last week! yea. very nice lady i must say. her motherly character makes you feel like you can approach her for anything :)

-break break. after pizza, after chatting, after videotaping-

Culture's presentation was a blast! :) Last lesson of culture ended on a good note I would say. third group presenting now at 3:14 WHICH MEANS LESSONS ARE GONNA END SO EARLY YAY.

Just finished playing a game as a competitor against miss fi.

And class ended! its only 3:40. life rocks!

okay bye, one of the wierdest blogpost i ever had.

blog make over, i guess

2008-08-10T13:32:00.002+08:00

make over! it looks more appealing to me now, at least.

So.. all the many many things that I have to blog about will come one by one as I remember them.

On friday, saw stacey at causeway point. Dont even ask what we did. we screamed and sort of 'bitch smacked' each other - it was so hilarious! Stacey is one girl who has been there time and time again. I love this girl to the max!

National day yesterday, helped ECO Singapore out with the Dunk It project. well, it was nice being the station master for game station 2. [soccer mixed with dog & bone] at least I know it was one of the more enthusiastic stations with people screaming in excitment and members of the public coming to join the game over and over again. talk about sense of satisfaction!

If my memory serves me, the three schools involved were Dunman High, Damai and Kranji. And yea, all of them were really nice people:) Being me, I made them cheer the dunk it cheer like a gazillion times (i told you mine was the noisiest station) just to create the awareness of i dont know what but i just had to. i love cheering.

"i say dunk it you say eh you say eh you say eh
i say dunk it you say bah you say bah you say bah
i say dunk it you say eh
i say dunk it you say bah
i say dunk it you say ehhhh bahhhh!"

saw the fireworks and caught a few glances of the national day parade screened at the padang. well, touching and heartwarming - knowing that Singapore has come thus far and survived all odds, still standing tall.

Thats about it for now.

2008-08-08T20:58:00.002+08:00

finally, yes finally im updating this dying blog.

I've been so busy and tired, don't even ask. last few updates been really short and actually off hand I can't think of what I would want to blog for today.

I have so much up my mind, where do i even start?

Okay lets start from drama performance. Yeah. performed yesterday for playtime. after all the getting into character moments, the soooo many rehearsals, the late nights in school - its all over. haha, it was a performance to remember though. oh and thank you rebecca darling, the makeup you helped with was awesome :) vivek, thanks dear boy for the support that you've been giving all this while. sandhya, thanks for coming down my love im damn happy you came down. and minyi - not forgetting you thanks for being there to cheer me up when i get so stressed! love all of you truckloads. There was definitely a sense of achievement and satisfaction after the whole performance.

The group :

Adriel, Yan, Suba, Shaheedah, Meutia & I.

Hey you guys, its been damn nice all these while helping one another and being there. yay! we can do more of such stuff, definitely!

And semester 1 is coming to an end and this means HOLIDAYS. like finally! classes are going to split - I guess after all that the class has been through, there is that attachment that will remain. Getting to know my classmates better of the past 4 months was a nice experience. People like vivek & minyi will remain dear to me. Also people like hannan, sarhan, jamal, samantha, englee - all have been really awesome friends. :)

Actually, there is so much for me to blog about, i'll be back.

continue tagging, i'll reply soon<3!

2008-07-23T12:12:00.005+08:00

Positive things happen to positive people. Sarah Beeny

An optimist sees an opportunity in every calamity; a pessimist sees a calamity in every opportunity. Winston Churchill

I am so envious of people who can stay so happy no matter what happens. w.o.w

I apologise for the lack of updates of late. Been really buzzed with so many things - I promise to update real soon.

With regards to the previous post, thank God everything is fine now:)

unstable platform

2008-07-09T17:32:00.004+08:00

oh god please let everything be alright.

everything has to be okay.

please please please please please.

oh gosh.

I hope everything will be okayokayokayokayokayokayokayokay....

satisfaction can never be bought

2008-07-07T15:25:00.003+08:00

No,im not updating for real.(:

what got me blogging was my presentation for culture. So miss fi was saying we've to be as CREATIVE as possible.

The problem statement was,

Imagine you wake up one morning and cannot remember who you are. What questions would you ask? What would you do?

so we did a narration blog and acting and MUSIC to accompany it. yes yes yes (:

we're all so satisfied with our work! yaaaay!

check this out, ya'll.

ALL CONTENT WRITTEN BY AARTI, SAMANTHA, HANNAN, DEBBIE. contents are fictional. =)

http://theforgotten-.blogspot.com/ (im linking it to my links)

now you know we rock!

I HATE FEELING LIKE THAT

2008-06-28T15:13:00.005+08:00

Regret?
I hate this word. For once, I lost to the promise I always stuck to of never wanting to do something which might get me in a direct situation of regret.

The past two weeks been hell depressing weeks because of I dont know what reason but it just didnt turn out the way I expected it to. To be truthful, the smile I had through these two weeks are what we all call - plastered smiles. When I smiled, I didnt smile within me. When I laughed, it was to respect the joke. When I said I was okay, I was not. When asked, how you feeling and when I replied better, I lied. Yes that pretty much screwed my two weeks were. Its just another one of those, my genuine happy emotions are on holidays and they'll be back.

I have a marvellous family (happy and united as always), I have fantastic friends, I enjoy doing some things which Im doing, I do not suffer from anything strong enough to pull me down, and no im not 'emo-ing', no im not depressed about life, no im not sooo unhappy to the verge of crying myself to sleep, no im not pmsing AND NO IM NOT A NUTCASE.

The worst part of it all is when you feel you have people around who would give you support, help you through but you just want to tell no one about it - in other words, cross this hurdle youself. You gather enough reasons to be happy but only to fail again when one negative thought appears and spoils it all. How ironic, I know.

As all these stories intertwine, they're gonna play a familiar tune which your head has always wanted to ignore, they'll bug you all at one go which your heart which choose to ignore. ignore. if only it worked to ignore and never again be bothered about it.

Gavin left. One facilitator Ive always looked up to. Its damn sad that he left becuase Im sure he's the one who gave the class a better foresight of Cognitive and about 'who said powerpoint needed to be 10-12 slides' and of all the facilitators, though his questions are intense and thought provoking, it always appears to make sense and bring you on the correct path of thinking through the problem of the day. At least when I broke down once, he was there to tell me that it wasnt the end - there was more to (the reason why I broke down). So yeah, all in all he created an impact. Its sad. (ANOTHER REASON TO FEEL SAD DAMN IT)

As i type this I can sort of feel the intensity of this blog post and I freaking dont wanna continue because feeling damn sad has no limitations to how much I can complain.

oh my god, i smell the scent of a nice drink my mum's making. =)
a nice hug from my mum makes all sadness and worries disappear!

till then, ya'll! (:

2008-06-24T17:17:00.001+08:00

aarti's in love with the round world!

2008-06-19T22:39:00.010+08:00

16th june 2008:

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, SANDHYA DEEP KAUR<3!

played pool in rp's library cafe and thereafter cut a slice of oreo cheesecake, with her:D

though simple, i hope you like it! ALL THE BEST FOR THE SEVENTEENTH YEAR, BABE.

w3h gave Candy and I a belated birthday surprise! IT WAS AWESOME. i got a name necklace and candy got a name bracelet. so sweet of them really. thank you so much you guys. love ya'll!

Happy belated birthday to you too, Candy!

yes, gemini rocks:D

awww, w34h thanks!!!!!!

17th june 2008:

AND THEN ON TUESDAY DRAMA MATES WERE SOOOO SWEET.
TOP (LEFT > RIGHT) : ZAI, ADRIEL
BOTTOM (LEFT > RIGHT) : SHAHEEDAH, MEUTIA

THANK YOU GUYS. LOVE LOVE LOVE!

After reading the script numerous times (hah)

say hi to zai! (jeez it ryhmes!)

this picture is concrete evidence of how boring enterprise can get with all the microsoft excel and calculations. :S

for those who still do not know, yeah i did french manicure. nail extensions:)

19th june 2008 :
today was damn productive. not that all other days werent, but today was just one of the best ones i have to admit. BECAUSE IT WAS CHEMISTRY. =) lessons and presentations were a breeze.

okay i just realized something, no wait i realized two things :
1) my blog is so picture based now (good or bad, you judge)
2) i have to start blogging stuff which are not so people directed because those who dont know me will end up understanding nothing at all.

Anyway, playtime groups have been formed. scripts done, characters finalized. left to correct steps and actually why am I making it sound like so much is done. it's barely started, aarti gupta.

There was this bazaar from O2 skin products in school today. got my mum eyeshadows and got myself a lip gloss:] and also bought cereals which kinda made the whole class addicted to. yay me.

there it is, yet another successful ~~after much procastinating~~ update

a very special day(:

2008-06-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

since its june 15, it's time to shout:

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! I LOVE YOU MY DEAREST DAD:)

Just came home from a family lunch gathering and got some presents for my dad. cut the cake and now am just lazing around to recharge for the new day.

and its sandhyaaaaa's birthday tomorrow :]

alright, i'll update real soon!<3

things may never be the same

2008-06-11T16:36:00.004+08:00

friend.

this word holds alot of meaning, only if seen in the right perspective. it sure sucks though to lose a good friend who once shared all laughters, shared happy moments, smiled you through the days you were down, lending a shoulder to halve your problems. who would have ever dreamt things would turn out this way? there were ups and downs, i dont deny. but havent we always agreed on the phrase, 'what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger?' things just had to turn out this way. Even at this juncture, i refuse to say we moulded things into this stage because I know both you and I have no intentions or whatsoever for things to become like that. I am loaded with thoughts on how and why it turned out this way and what caused it.

I refuse still to believe there is no chance for things to go back to normal. all i want to know is why are there so much of lies in this close friendship of ours? infantile, dont you think? what is wrong with just telling me the truth? nothing, i repeat, nothing will change even if you tell me what is going on. i dont know why you refuse to tell me the truth? it just seems like you are bent on making me jealous. and this is plain wierd. it is pointless for me to be jelaous? i have no reason to be.

to me, this friendship means more than what caused it to turn out this way. unhappiness, jealousy, ignorace, stubborn attitude - whatsoever. maybe it isn't you. maybe its just me. the way I have changed. maybe I have to deal with this in a better way.

you used to be a good friend. is it too much to ask if i say i want that good friend back? WITH NO DOUBTS?

A DAY TO REMEMBER!

2008-06-09T23:33:00.012+08:00

9th june (:

bugis. seoul garden. neoprints. orchard. imm. cable cars. mount faber. jewel box. a feast. sweetest ambience ever. presents. wishes. hugs & kisses are all that will make a 17th birthday sweet and memorable.

I enjoyed myself alot. Thanks you guys for the wishes and presents.
A BIG THANK YOU TO MY FAMILY FOR THE BRILLIANT NIGHT:D
GOD, THANKS FOR GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL DAY TO REMEMBER:D

the sad thing is, the day is coming to and end:( aww, why does it have to end so fast.... ahaha nvm. what matters most is, it is a wonderful 17th to remember!

Jamal asking me to treasure every mintue before the 1oth!

[edited]

pictures:D

Thank you girls<3!

HEY QUACK! leave that smile okay!

THERESAAA:D remember our aunty moments? haha. love you babe!

this was in starbucks after laughing over a small glass incident! omg!

(: this is love!

Love you, quack!

super special treatment:P

on the way to mount faber:)

scenery at night is soooo cool!

the sea!(:

walkway to the jewel box restaurant:D

Jewel Box rocks:)

say w-o-a-h(:

shirley's temple [name of the drink]

the ambience was more than cool!

yes, it doesnt look clear:(

This lighted heart caught me real hard! so in love with it:)

cut the cake after this picture

because, someone came along and asked if we wanted to take a family picture (: pardon the blur-ness cos i took it with my phone from the end product of the portrait:D smiles are not so distinct from the phone camera:( i love this pic btw! its damn nice.

all in all, the day was a blast!

i can take a few tears now and then to let it all out

2008-05-31T11:58:00.006+08:00

HEY YOU EARTHLINGS!

It's been such a long time since I updated this dying space. My apologies, ya'll. Aarti's been really busy doing so many things both academic and activities wise.

Yesterday was the last day of first term. say YAY! (: to end the term there's permutation & combination math lesson and it sure does bring back memories of secondary school. oh how clearly i remember when tan chor seng and kavitha used to crack their heads over this topic with 4e2. but seriously thank god for them or not upon questioned, i wont be able to answer! =)

stacey tagged me to do a quiz. haha.

1. What do you want the most now?
damn it. i want alot of things now:)

2. Who is the person you trust most?
Not a person, more of inner self thing. take me as I am, you guys.

3. Who do you think of yourself?
I am a girl not like the rest.

4. If you have a dream come true, what is it?
Achieve the 101 things I want to in life

5. What is your goal for this year?
Being who I am and the best I can be.

6. Do you believe in eternity?
No. Period.

7. Do you believing in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
HELL YEA. i saw rainbows quite a number of times before! (:

8. Have you ever broke a person heart that he or she wanna commit suicide?
no lah. thats stupid!

9. What feelings do you love most?
being happy loved contented!

10. What are the requirements from your other half?
Basically, you dont get everything you want in the world.so feelings still overpower it all.

11. What kind of feelings do you hate most?
STRESSED UP, getting stuck in between two very important things (forced to choose one), troubled.

12. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
HELL YEAH.

13. What do you want to do in the future?
im still thinking about it. but most probably into the tourism industry and as a side, a drama school as such.

14. What is the most important thing in your life?
People dear to me.

15. Who do you hope will always be there for you?
MY FAMILY & FRIENDS. they've always been there and I hope it remains like this.

16. Choose one. Happiness/Love?
Happiness. because only with happiness there's love:)

on the 19th, celebrated Regina's birthday:) hope she likes the gift!

oh and yesterday, was pamela's birthday. WEIQIAN ELIZA THERESA AUDREY SIEWHONG came to rp! :) and guess what they gave me an early birthday surprise as well! i was damn shock! thanks you girls. i love the gifts soooo much and the cake was damn nice.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PAMELA!<3
WEIQIAN MY DEAR GIRL, CHEER UP! will always be here for you<3!

sigh, i really find myself falling into a trap which is going to be so hard to get out of. 3 at once is not gonna be easy. it might be just the way I view it, but I can see all coming at once. do I really have to do something i've always hated? rejection really has to set in? i hope not. i really do.

when you realize nothing is working

2008-05-15T10:43:00.010+08:00

TODAY IS THE 17th. I drafted this on the 15th, hence the date :D

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY REGINA CHAN! <3

Jamal, Farah, Hannan, Me! :) HANNAN, get well soon! take care of your
arm! *gossips*

Minyi, Regina, Aarti :D

JAMAL, TERRY

Minyi! (:

They decided to do this! TERRY! YOUR IDEA RIGHT! HAHA.

They wanted to make the effect such that jamal is pushing them away and they pop out from my head! LOL
Jamal's signature pose. terry's saying AH-HAHA.

Rebecca, Hannan and I shared this and still couldnt finish it.

The adevnture learning stuff. =)

SAMANTHAAAA:D

THE FORK BROKE! ROAR*

Candy! her birthday's on the 7th! :D babe, like you said!

The view from Eng Lee's hostel. oh its, RP's swimming pool and basketball/soccer/rugby court

JAMAL.

It was some science exhibition! haha. Im not kissing it please! it was just that I happened to be toooo close to it.

W34H ROCKS!

Non Smoker's lung vs Smoker's lung. (its pig's lungs btw)

So listening to the beat of Ayo technology doesn't make you feel any better. quick, come backkkk!

One thing for sure, i screwed the UT test on thurs. yea, if you agree, congrats!

Been a rather long and testing week,i'd say . Basically drama started and the people there are seriously nice. though, i still havent mixed with all yet. but i think its been nice meeting during the tea session and am looking forward to moreeeeee drama!:DD

waiting for speak IG to start too.

JIVE started.

& i keep forgetting to attend so many other meetings and stuff. i'm hopeless lah. no, seriously.

Yesterday was hell crazy. Because Terry had to go for some modelling thing, Jamal, Samantha, Zarifah, Weiyi, Yuan Zhong, Eng Lee and I stayed back in school. First went to Eng Lee's hostel. ZOMG, the hostel is damnnnnnnnn nice! it looks just like a condo. say, w-o-a-h.

From there, since terry wasn't done, we sat at the relax area in school and went crazy, playing. Eng Lee was sharing his Malaysia experiences when he got really angry at this person. So we decided to role play. HAHA! it was damnnnnnnnnnnnn funny. It seemed so real that some people thought we were actually fighting. =D

NOTE; WE WERE JUST ROLEPLAYING

This is like one of the sooooo many ones we took. note the laughter and smiles on our faces. it obviously shows we were just joking. And then after that, we played catching! (YES I KNOW!) but, it was sooooo long since I played catching. After catching, we were damn tired so we sat down and starting singing,

you are my sunshine,

my only sunshine,

you make me happy

when skies are grey

you never know dear

how much I love you
please dont take my sunshine away!

we were playing around with the lyrics as well.

th-e-n. we left school! so i suddenly just thought of another nursery rhyme and had to teach EngLee. this was another point for us all to laugh over. Eng Lee's way of pronouncing was damn funny and because he didnt know how to pronounce some words he just went rar rar rar. haha! *aarti's smiling to the thought of this scene which happened yesterday*

12345
once i caught a fish alive
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then i let it go again
why did you let it go?
cos it bit my finger so
which finger did it bite?

this little finger on my right on my right on my right right right right

Gosh, couldnt actually count how many times we sang that! IT WAS ALL THE WAY FROM SCH TO CWP.

Thanks you guys for making the dayyyyy:D It drifted my mind off soooo mnay things! thanks.

and Terry! CHEER UP!:) You will must and can get over it! JIAYOU!

woah. such a long post-

A VERY SPECIAL DAY TO A VERY SPECIAL LADY!

2008-05-11T22:13:00.001+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY, MUMMYYYYYYYY! I LOVE YOU!

i need an organizer!

2008-05-10T22:10:00.004+08:00

i really need one before I start forgetting EVERYTHING. how hopeless.

Can you imagine i totally forgot to do my quiz yesterday?!?! RAHH.
ALL BECUASE OF BECUASE OF BECAUSE OF falling asleep on the laptop! woke up with a really hot head (cos the laptop does heat up!) Jeez. whatever is happening to my sleeping patterns. tsktsk.

So w34h went for the adventure learning module on wednesday! it was damn fun, really. was really heartwarming to see the already bonded so well class moving on helping one another to go the extra mile.

As I stated in the programme, Action Speaks Louder Than Words! and w34h-ians, im damn proud of all of you!

Apparently, i have sooo many pictures to post up, BUT! ive yet to transfer them.

I loved friday's lesson! check the poem I came up with, with the help of jamal!=D
topic was how we value things & this was our conclusion! seriously love it!

We move on from right and wrong
Understanding is what keeps us strong
Values and memories there will be
Personal which others wont ever see
Traditions which guides us along
Over time we will bond
Old things have values,
The choices are wide
To forget or remember,
YOU DECIDE!

and w34h watched happy house friends after class! hahaha.

Sigh. there are a thousand and one things Ive to do.

Finally done with Adventure learning RJ, Emcee script, survey!
Drama on monday. Jason's birthday celebrations on monday!
Script meet up on tuesday. then then there's some projects on wednesday!

OH MAN!

so ya'll. today was National Youth Environment Forum 2008. met alot of people. and some are really inspiring. learnt quite alot from today. basically its more than an acheievement. because I only thought my job was to emcee well and done. but, no way. if only life was so easy.

but i really want the days to past as fast as possible!

random, much?

2008-05-07T11:20:00.006+08:00

Ouhkay...

cognitive test was rather okay. i guess. *cross fingers for the results*

Currently having enterprise lessons and am gonna fall asleep sooooooooooooon. its not boring but im just tired out, so much.

Saw Stacey, Seri, Nadirah, Ben, Hongyi at causeway point yesterday! OMG WE PRACTICALLY SCREAMED SO MUCH! people mightve thought what was happening! it was damn hilarious! i swear! you guys are missed lah. sooooo much!:D though we're in the same school, we dont get to bump into each other that often! hahaha.

anyway, i realized how short my posts have been lately.

and,
i heard what you said over the phone. i heard it all. im just wondering, why?
I wont say anything like i always did. perhaps, he meant more to you. I told him what was the fact. the line he took was wayyyy faster. but, whatever.

NO.MORE.NO.MORE.NO.MORE.NO.MORE.NO.MORE.

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okay lah!

bye sweeties! *outta here*

YYYYIKES!

2008-05-04T13:01:00.001+08:00

omg omg omg

cognitive test on tuesday.

die die die.

Mug, aarti, mug!

because you misunderstood

2008-05-03T18:24:00.001+08:00

like they say, there'll always be a first.

look me in the eye and tell me it'll all be okay.

It's alive with the beating of two hearts :)

2008-05-01T12:37:00.007+08:00

The cafe's our favourite hangout!

HANNAN! I REALLY LOVE YOUR GUITAR!

woah. =P

THEY SAY I LOOK LIKE THIS GIRL? uh, i dont think so lor...

Since its a public holiday today, I have all the time in the world to start updating this dying thing. tsktsk.

and i just realized that reently, with every post comes pictures. haha. can't do anything? w34h just cant get enough of pictures:)

Was talking to Jamal online today and apparently he claims asking me to walk fast is soooooo difficult. its as good as asking a bald man if he uses shampoo. GRR. I was really tired yesterday that I fell asleep, hugging my laptop. Thankfully my mum woke me up at 2330! RJ,QUIZ and EVALUATION was due at 2359 and since I was late yesterday, I wouldve failed horribly for the day if i didnt hand in on time! yikes. sleeping before completing assignments is DETRIMENTAL.very.

In case youre wondering what IG, or in your case cca, i joined - Drama & Debate. Haha. expected, i guess. And! I got A for cognitive again! double yay! I did mention how difficut it is to score for cognitive right? My facilitator is very intense. the questions he asks are just not...... our thing? My comments from him was not to always look so stress in lessons and try to smile more! hahaha.

;
thank you thank you thank you! =D I WANNA SAY THE SAME THING YOU WANNA SAY!

when i realize how much i HATE computing

2008-04-22T12:59:00.004+08:00

CODES.LABELS.DIRECTIONS.

Tell me about it.

Tuesday. and thankfully I have computing lessons on Tuesday,freeing me of all the exhaustion for the rest of the week.

GOSH. im practically going crazy reading codes and they're making my head spin. real bad.

2nd breakout now and apparently half the class has given up.
Jamal and Sharhan beside me have given up totally, listening to songs.

And also, i realized how many pics I actually have taken today. ouhkay... this computing stuff is driving me nuts:(

BUT THEN AGAIN, AARTI GUPTA IS SO NOT LETTING IT GO!

JUST RESTING:)

JAMAL (with the shades), SHARHAN

SEE THE SPIRIT :)

OKAY, back to codes!

TOODLES! *it'll all end very soon:P*

PROCASTINATION IS BAAAAD.

2008-04-18T21:16:00.006+08:00

Been procastinating on whether or not to blog for this whole week. but laziness kicked in and got the better of yours truly so i'm dragging it till today and if i wanna avoid sitting in front of the computer waiting for the 10312421945 pictures to load, i've to blog some down. NOW.

Sharhan

Samantha

Zarifah!

I LOVE THE MOCHA ICE BLENDED WITH WHIPPED CREAM! (THE MIDDLE ONE :D)

Weiyi!

W34H :)

Vivek!

Candy!

Jamal!

My group for Monday's module :]

I have no idea what we were doing.

(Thank God blogger allows 5 pics at a time! )

Been two weeks with w34h(TIMES FLIES!) and lessons with them are fun! :D lively class i'd say. Facilitators are fine too. i love thursday lessons! ANYWAY ANYWAY! the module I thought I was going to get a C for, I GOT AN A!!!!!!!! yes i know its so cool! :D
There was this one day we all wore black shirt and coincidentally the faci wore black too! haha. this class is awesome.
Some pictures are still with Weiyi. Some are still in the phone and no way i'm going to get up on my feet and get the usb port over, so some other day :]

Been going for dinner as a class the past week and got to know them better. Sharing experiences and the class has so many different people with different personalities. What I love most is, everyone's very open minded.

So the comment i passed the moment class ended was TGIF! Feeling really drained and lifeless now. exhausted so much of braincells. gosh!

Oh and since its the 18th, Happy Birthday NICHOLAS MOK!

it brought me down... and up again

2008-04-13T11:35:00.007+08:00

the title says it all.

But sad things can wait, happy things first. First week of school over, in a blink of the eye. So summing the whole week of school up, it was awesome. classmates are really helpful and friendly. never did i in my wilest dreams thought they'll be so easy to get along with. but as asual, am still one of the nosiest in class. haha. and im like the top on the list for them to joke about! practically everything (but of course in a good way!). Fun bunch of people. But the fact that we'll be separating in months just spoils in all. dang. Grades are very satisfactory to me as well :) so no complains at all! how nice... but im still a little worried for cognitive grades. i just have this feeling im gonna get a C for that and its gonna spoil my consistent and nice looking grade :(

On tuesday, got a surprise visit by jason! haha. so waiyuen him & I went to westmall (OF ALL PLACES!) macdonald's. as usual, joked around and jason shared his experience at work! =))

Went our with stacey & seri yesterday! omg. we really cam whored. made so much of noise. and disturbed each other. In all, it was damn fun. Took neoprints and we were screaming cos of various reasons. and! we poured out alot of worries and what nots. Overall, it helps to be in the same secondary school and then after in the same polytechnic! SAP & RAP! thanks so much. love ya'll, from AAP! :)) haha!

SAME HAIR COULOUR, I KID YOU NOT!

Coincidentally, we all brought white bags!

After taking this picture, stacey threw the onion on my leg! STACEYYYYY. haha

seri was peeping at what the staff were doing! hoho.

Pictures from tuesday:

After prayers for my grandfather,

Life's been awesome so far. i hope yours has been too! :)

W34H will be taking pics tmr so stay tunned!

playschool, kindergarten, primary school, secondary school, polytechnic

2008-04-07T21:19:00.002+08:00

First day of school was awesome.

Groups were different from that of the orientation but just as awesome.
In my group basically, all of them are jokers and we just clique well. so no complains at all, yaw!

Presentation today wasnt thaaaat bad =) so its a good start!

Oh and before waiyuen goes sarcastic again, i shall blog on wednesday's happenings.
First day of orientation, ended early. so decided to go back to school to collect the o level cert. met weiqian and so me her and waiyuen kfc-ed. and waiyuen loves to type diis way worhxzxzx. ew. and the catch phrase of that day was, go harvey go harvey! :D

Spoke to both mr tans. and goodness, i miss tanglin. ALOT.

okay ya'll, tune in for the next update!

from where i picked up traces and moved on

2008-04-05T12:41:00.007+08:00

tell me how cool this is :) PARTYYYY people!

yeah.

it was dope!

WE WON THE MOST ENTERTAINING GROUP! ohhhhh! we got 2nd overall!

damn cool!

izzah, wait, aarti! (:

wanting! - very nice girl:)

oops, i forgot his name. but he makes a superb teammate!

wish you were there?(:

everyone went so high - jumping and dancing all around. haha

Sabrina is a very sweet girl!

YUSRI! im forever disturbing him! he looks like lionel lewis!

wilson! the super funny one in the team (:

zoe! :D the hug was awesome!

forgot his name =X oops. but very friendly and makes a good listener!

say hello to zoe again! :D balloons - our hardwork!

woah. memories.

i took this because i love my shoes!

RP BROKE THE GUINESS WORLD RECORD FOR LEAPFROG! yay us!

some group work =)

this group rocks!

the wonderful team leaders:) so full of jokes!

KASMI!!:DD

IZZAH! :D

SHL ORIENTATION TEAM 2!

My class scheduled for the first term is a wonderful bunch! all sorts of different people. makes it sooo fun! =D hilarious and hyper bunch! Thank God for this class.

In short,
I ♥ W34H & SHL TEAM 2!

I was compelled to blog this down becuase the orientation left a deep impression on me.

i'm still so tired! sigh. and school officially starts on monday! and they have a drama audition coming up! and this and that.

GO SHL! GO GO GO!

April Fool's.

2008-04-01T15:34:00.006+08:00

Ive lost count the number of times i actually got fooled today. pfft. so silly of me.

Had a nice time yesterday, frankly speaking. =)

Island Creamery rocks la! Tried Mudpie and Nutella icecream. ARE YOU DROOLING?! because you should!

OKAY STOP LOOKING AND READ ON!

Played around with facebook earlier. God, facebook really needs to be more idiot proof. its so difficult to navigate my way there. & there are so many requests to accept! cant i just accept all at one go? its so tiring to click and click and click and click and click.....

So orientation starts tomorrow. I hope its fun and all because, i still miss 4e2! those days were awesome. how nice if we could actually all move on together. fat hope. never in my wildest dreams will that happen. sigh. i guess its part and parcel of life! have to move on. but i believe we'll never separate that 2 years bond! how many times we actually got into trouble, you wouldnt wanna know.

31.03.2008. if you're reading this. i wanna say, thank you so much! i know what you're gonna say, and i wanna say the same thing! :)

a major roller coaster ride

2008-03-31T01:05:00.003+08:00

is how i describe my life's current status.

if you actually peep back to my archives, december post, you'd see me blogging about my grandfather being in the hospital. well, not anymore, never again. Yes. He passed away peacefully on Monday (24th March 2008 - exaclty one week ago). I lost him to various illnesses and I shouldnt be so selfish to not accept things the way it is. watching him suffer in silence was not very helpful. so he's moved on. I should to. Always loved him, am still loving him, will always love him! When one loses a grandparent who he/she is so close to, the feeling is beyond explanation. thats the way im feeling now. right now at 1:11am on the 31st march.

Earth Hour's programme went well. had a nice time with all those part of this in one way or another. Spoke to Uncle Kiong alot. he's like soooooooo hilarious! and it was fun making fun of zhe yu - at least it killed my boredom. linin was a nice talking partner. ashley was a helpful
organizer. jietong- switched the lights off at the right time. wilson was the best at cheering people on. kephren- the one who made all this possible (: WHO I MISSED OUT AH?
more information please open a new window and shift your eyes to http://earthhoursingapore.blogspot.com

Went to pay my respects at my aunt's place today. Chilled with cousins while playing carum. more of so that i wont stone. 'twas fun cos at least i scored twice. quiet lah, im usually very bad at this. achievements are satisfactory:)

am curently talking to weiqian online. and we're just imitating the way some people type, with all the double 'i's and 'u's and what nots. and people asking, "i like it can?" CANNOT LAH.
EW. im just loyal to my english language, thankyouverymuch.

2008-03-19T23:23:00.005+08:00

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME!!! yea, iknowiknow. ive been superdupermegaultra busy with so many things, dont even ask.

15th March:

Caught Step Up 2 with sis and bro! nice show but i still prefer the first one haha =) played at the arcade and ate icecream and shared so much of things together. i seriously love doing this with my silings. the feeling's just different from when you're sharing it with friends. in short, my sis & bro rock BIG TIME : )

16th March:

SKIP SKIP. can't remember so i guess it wasnt anything interesting.

17th March:

Met up with weiqian and theresa! like, finally!!! tell me how i actually have to accept the fact that we're not going to be in the same school, same class anymore! how! had KFC with the girls and as usual, the chit chats. im getting all emotional thinking about it again. sigh, i miss my girlfriends ALOT. had a good time laughing with these two crazy girls. they made my day, really. talking to them is one thing, putting up with them disturbing me all the while was another. haha. they drove me nuts till i couldnt stop laughing. Theresa left after a while and so Weiqian & I went down to NP to get her laptop. i know she's reading this and thinking of ways to make me jealous.

took pictures(OI THERESA WE THREE DIDNT TAKE PICTURES!!!)) and then left her to meet my mum. girls, we so have to do this again! =D muchmanyALOT of loves!

18th March:

aww, sweetest day in 2008 =) period. not explaining more than this. I LOVE THIS DAY! haha.

19th March:

DID ALOT OF THINGS. yea. basically, thinking, doing, thinking, doing, thinking, doing...

YAWN* good night!

2008-03-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

BEFORE we cross into March the 14th,

LET ME WISH MY FATHER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

At this point in time, i feel pretty much like a lifeless individual. i.seriously.have.got.no.energy.to.spare.

& the fact that its raining everyday is not helping. So anyway, Science Centre's Enrich! Programme went as planned (most of it at least). THREE DAYS. and i fell ill after the first day. o.O! hahaha thats damn pathetic i realise! second and third day i was most of the time, managing my station - alone.

and with my tendency of losing my voice, tadaaa thats exactly what happened. It was he shouting and getting wet in the rain idea. i sound like a man when i speak. how pathetic!

Anyhow, i survived the storm! how appropriate.

Thankfully enrolment for polytechnic has been settled.

Went for dinner today at this really nice seafood restaurant :] and bought this yummy cake from awfullychocolate. ITS DAMN NICE. go try it!

gotta go now you guys. brain's not functioning well so pardon the random post.

=)

2008-03-09T13:56:00.007+08:00

HELLO YOU GUYS:)

How're things?! haha. im the best person to answer this question because my life's been filled with really fun happenings.

Its gonna be challenging to pen every single one down becuase it's just too many! hoho.

So anyway, we're in the midst of planning a SC dinner [the 4th batch one=)] haha! AND LIKE, I REALLY HOPE IT'LL BE SOON. because it's been so long since i caught up with all of them! Though on msn we do chat, it's a different thing altogether. when i say all, i really mean all. =) One of those other things that made me really really happy going to school other than my lovely 4e2 was SC! though there were disputes here and there cause of unhappines, it's all whatever! haha. because we still love one another. I still remember those times with my batch of sc mates. very clearly. like, the wildest one i suppose? after meetings becomes GOSSIP TIME. how can I ever froget those times? how...

4e2 is also planning another gathering! :) SMILE SMILE! FASTER FASTER! MEET YOU GUYS AND LETS ALL TALK COCK AGAIN!

&

THIS:

MAN, I LOVE MY HAIR! =D

toodles!

2008-03-01T14:28:00.009+08:00

The tremendous stress of having to keep up with so many things is getting on me! Hence, i apologize for the lackadaisical mood.

and before you conclude anything, its NOT emo-ing. I just hate it when people go around concluding that anything linked to feeling sad is being emo. so.silly.of.them.

I do realize though that this is not a very interesting way to start a post BUT! this is a good way to resist the urge to start cursing!

Have you ever come across a situation when the person you would not have expected to have said something actually says it to someone else and, indirectly threw a tight slap of words on your face? Someone whom in fact deserves no right to comment on your oh so awesome life but for the sake of pulling you down till your pride reaches lower than your shadows, says what pleases him/her? I am very interested to read the human mind. like, really. Why is it that commenting on someone else gives people so much of pleasure? everyone do actually talk behind someone else's backs. but a minority are those who speak with words, which upon hearing, makes you feel like your stomach is gonna come out of your butt. If you actually know the feeling of that. Telling yourself not to bother is just another way of shunning something so hurting away. yet again, how much can you change people's perspective of you? So what if one didnt do so well for something? does it mean the end? no right? there are a thousand and one more chances out there. certain things of which are seriously beyond how much we can control.

If i could do something about things which seemed not the best, you think I wouldnt? the thing here is, I cant. What I heard totally made me blank out a good whole minute. Its too late to regret or apologize once things have happened. but isnt making good use of things a better way to solve all difficulties and doubts? NO, according to some people. screwing up in one pivotal point of your life makes your whole life meaningless. Dont you think when someone speaks something, thinking about themselves first is the most vital thing? take for example the person responsible for me typing this whole paragraph out. how much has she succeeded in life? Not much aye. Sometimes when things are exaggerated, you cant sit back and tolerate the fatuousness of people anymore.

You spoke those words with no thoughts, I digested them with a million other
thoughts running through my head.

On a lighter note, i've some pictures to post up -

These chocolates are really nice :D

My favourite drink from Pastamania! :DD Green Apple Italian Soda!

Parveen Gupta, I LOVE YOU!<3

I LOVE MY HAIR!

Yesterday was the first meeting for Earth hour! Volunteers were pretty nice and helpful =D
& its gonna happen in 28 days!

OH AND

1. CONGRATULATIONS SINGAPORE on winning the bid to host the 2010 Olympic games =D YAY!
2. I hope the man on the run gets caught!

2008-02-28T14:36:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS! THANK GOD THANK GOD THANK GOD. MY APPEAL GOT THROUGHHHHHHHH!

although I didnt get my first one, im still thankful i got the second one!

God, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! :D

2008-02-27T23:28:00.002+08:00

Went down to Jurong Point earlier for dinner! Saw Rachel there as well(: hey babe! all the best! haha.

Oh and my mom bought me a hair straightener! AWW~! how sweet is that! Love you mummyyyyyyyyy! yay-ness man! IM LIKE SO HAPPY NOW:DD

so, here are some quizzes. I just felt like doing them. (:

Your Inner Eye Color Is Blue

You've got the personality of a blue eyed women
You're intense and expressive - and always on the go
You've also got a sweet, playful side - which draws men in

What Color Eyed Woman Are You Really?

You Are the Super Ego

While some people may think first and act later... you often don't act at all.
You rather be safe than sorry, and you take ethics pretty seriously.
Like everyone, you have some pretty crazy desires. But unlike everyone, you restrain yourself.
You have high standards for your own behavior. And you happily exceed them.

Are You Id, Ego, or Superego?

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress.

You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical.

You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.

You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.

You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.

You are a good communicator. You work hard to get your ideas across effectively.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

You Are Great With Money

You know the value of a dollar - and you save and spend wisely.
By living below your means, you've set yourself up for a rich future.
And while it may hurt to sacrifice now, you'll probably have plenty of money later on.
You're on your way to riches - just keep it up.

Are You Good With Money?

You Are an Afternoon Person

You can find energy any time of the day ... or night!
You prefer to be out and about when most other people are.
Very early mornings or very late nights aren't really your thing.
You're practically solar powered, and the afternoon is when do best.

Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

Alright. Enough =)

Currently waiting for Sandhya's call. OI SANDHYA FASTER CALL LA WA LAO. haha! and also staying up till 2 to catch America's Next Top Model. I know lah, long ago episode. But.... whatever lah. Now, im feeling kinda down. Jeez. moodswings again. oh well!

byeeeee!

2008-02-25T23:07:00.002+08:00

25th 25th 25th! (:

IM UPDATING the very next day HAHA!

Look at the conversation btwn Izuwan and I. Check that funny guy out. *coughIZUWANcough*

AARTI : Hey! Do you have "My Witch" by Richard J?
IZUWAN : You lost your witch!?!?!
AARTI : DANG! im asking for the song la!
IZUWAN : haha sorry, i dont.
AARTI : hahaha, its okay then :)
IZUWAN : Aarti lost her witch given by Richard J

LOL! you see what I mean now!

So, some cool songs you should check outttttt!
- See you again [Miley Cyrus easier known as Hannah Montanna(sp?)]
- My Witch [ Richard Janson]
- Work [Kelly Rowland]
- Feedback [Janet Jackson]
- Wont go home without you [Maroon 5]
- Break Anotha [Blake Lewis]
- Piece of me [Britney Spears]

Talk at West Grove was good:) Ryal did a good job!

Okayyyy, imma get back to doing reviews and some editing.

Ciao!

2008-02-24T20:42:00.004+08:00

Dang, its like the 24th of february! finally Im updating. haha!

I deserve to be awarded the title of the laziest blogger =)

Thing's been going on well for me! just that I've been really busy. Over the past two weeks, there've been quite alot of important things which had to be settled and organized! So yes, I've chosen the poly route. Republic Polytchnic, to be precise. I figured, God works in mysterious ways. He actually has everything planned out. No matter how it happens, think about it thoroughly, in time to come, coming to terms with certain things aren't as difficult as it may seem.

Last Wednesday, had an interview with Seventeen magazine! how cool is that! wahaha. =) yes man, I was so excited, and happy of course! Look out for the next issue of seventeen magazine people! hoho! And also, managed to pull through the wee hours of Friday morning sending out emails to various schools regarding Earth Hour 2008. Well, its a day where cities over turn off their lights for an hour to support:)
Started at 11 and ended only at 5 am! Thankfully, Kephren and I halved the workload. Damn, we were relieved upon the last email sent out. phew~

Tomorrow, will be going down to West Grove Primary School for a talk! YIKES. that'd be a first! Im actually feeling quite nervous now! hahaha. I know its a good opportunity and all and Im happy I have the chance to take this opprtunity up. I HOPE EVERYTHING WILL GO WELL =))

Sometimes, when you have many things to complete and realise that you're moving really fast, clearing all your responsibilites, take a step back and view things as a new eye. Only then you'll realise, there are many things which can be improved, seeing it from a different perspective helps :)

Alright, 'nuff said. When the next update will be I HAVE NO IDEA. LOL! Soon, i hope! stay tuned:))

2008-02-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

HOLLA PEOPLE!!! =))

into the last fifteen minutes of the day, thank god it's eleventh of february and its got me blogging primarily becuase its my brother's birthday!!! WOOT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAJIV! I LOVE YOU ALOTALOTALOT!:)

THE LOVLIEST SIBLINGS ON PLANET EARTH!

Lovely cousin of mine:)

THE BESTEST COUSINS YOU'LL EVER FIND!!!

So my life's been pretty amazing and interesting. been up to many many things lately! hanging out with friends, watching tv tv and more tv, touring singapore(no joke!) and most of all, living life the way I want to.

the O levels results have been released. HA! the moment you've been waiting for. I regret to inform you because this is a WorldWideWeb(WWW) i am NOT going to state my scores here for the whole world to see. some privacy needed. do ask me if you've that kaypoh-ness in you dying to find out and i might tell you :) I'll only say, Im contented. My family is. Period. I thank God for bringing me through and placing me a level higher!

Oh and there was one night, lazing around, I decided to play with my phone. Was listening to 987fm (MUTTONS TO/AT MIDNIGHT they are hilarious btw) and decided to call their hotline. i seriously didnt think i would get through. i mean, i never did get through calls, only smses went through. boy was I wrong! i got through and spoke to them! OH MY GOD. i called in during the 'YOU COMPLAIN' part and complained to my hearts content haha! LISTEN TO THEM! they'll make you laugh till you drop i swear!

and yesterday, my dad was flying to UK so my whole family went down to send him off. celebrated in advance at Earle Swensens. =) T3 is cool yo'! its big and nice. they even have NTUC Fairprice in it. hoho.

today was marvellous. Brother's birthday. went down to jurong point for some shopping and dinner. got him his birthday presents and me, my sis mum and him dined together. it was fun laughing and chatting! after that, bought his cakeeeeeeeeee. oh yum! met relatives at jurong point itself and all went to my grandma's place and cut the cake!

AFTER THIS IS WHATS THE MOST PISSING OFF. My cousin (Im ashamed to call her that) luckily you guys dont know who im referring to other than the layman term 'cousin' i used or not i rather hide myself under a blanket than acknowledge her as a cousin of mine. because of some misunderstanding, she acts like a big baby! cries at even little thing and whines at everything. SHUT UP LAH, you 17 year old buffalo! YOUR STUPID NYEH NYEHS ARE SUCH A PUT OFF. HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT WHAT CAUSED THAT MISUNDERSTANDING? I TELL YOU. YOUR CHILDISH ATTITUDE. YOU ARE SUCH A PRICK IN THE BUTT, A SORE TO THE EYES AND! IN EASIER TERMS, A PAIN IN THE ASS. WHO NEEDED YOU TO BE PRESENT WHEN WE WERE CUTTING THE CAKE? NOT ME. HAHA, NEVER ME LAH, COME ON. YOU DIDNT EVEN HAVE THE RESPECT FOR THE BIRTHDAY BOY. WHO ARE YOU TO COMMENT WHETHER YOU NEEDED TO STAY TO CUT THE 'STUPID' CAKE. AS YOU CLAIM. SHIT YOU. THE CAKE CAN STILL BE CUT, THE BIRTHDAY SONG CAN STILL GO ON, LAUGHTER WILL STILL FILL THE HOUSE, SMILES WILL STILL SPREAD ACROSS OUR FACES WITHOUT YOU. YOU WERE NOT NEEDED. NEVER WAS, NEVER WILL BE. YOU THINK IF SOMEONE BELIEVES YOU, EVERYONE WILL? FAT HOPE. CARRY ON DREAMING AND THANKFULLY THIS DREAM OF YOURS WILL NEVER COME TRUE. WHAT THE HELL. YOU SPOILED MY BROTHER'S MOOD AND YOU THINK ITS VERY PLEASANT? YOU THINK YOU VERY BIG AH? PEOPLE HAVE TO GO TO THE GATE JUST TO BEG YOU? PUHLEASE LAH. DONT MAKE ME PUKE MY MEAL UP. I SAY YOU HAVE ALOT OF EGO. WHY!? I SMSED YOU EXACTLY ONE MONTH AGO ON YOUR BIRTHDAY TO WISH YOU. YOU DIDNT EVEN REPLY THE SMS WITH A SIMPLE THANKS. SHALLOWMINDED. AND HERE YOU ARE SAYING 'SOME PEOPLE HERE DONT HAVE MANNERS' REALITY CHECK! CHECK YOUR DISGUSTING ATTITUDE FIRST. YOU WANT RESPECT? GAIN IT! THE WAY YOU BEHAVED EARLIER IS PURE CHILDISH. OMG, I THINK A 2 YEAR KID WONT EVEN BEHAVE THE WAY YOU DID. WHY? BECAUSE YOU SIMPLY PUT NO SENSE IN THE TANTRUM YOU THREW. DONT GIVE THE SHIT EXCUSE OF BEING TIRED. HOW FAKE. I DIDNT KNOW TIRED PEOPLE WOULD WILLINGLY COME ALL THE WAY DOWN FROM ONE END OF SINGAPORE TO THE OTHER. I DONT BELIEVE TIRED PEOPLE HAVE ENOUGH ENERGY TO THROW TANTRUMS. THANK GOD WE WERE THERE TO CHEER MY BROTHER UP. OF COURSE I WILL BE THERE. HE'S MY BROTHER. YOU ARE NOT EVEN WORTH HIS SHADOWS IN MY EYES. WE ALL KNEW WHAT YOU WANTED WAS ATTENTION. CONGRATULATIONS, YOU WERE GIVEN NONE. BE HAPPY NOW :) EVERYONE WERE PISSED OFF BY YOUR ATTITUDE. THANK YOU FOR SHOWING US WHAT YOU'RE CAPABLE OF. MOST IMPORTANTLY WHO GOT EMBARRASSED AND WHO HAD THE LAST LAUGH? YOU AND US RESPECTIVELY. DAMN YOU. QUIT MY SIGHT AND I WOULD APPRECIATE IT ALOT. continue deceiving all you can. dont read this and tell me it was my fault that things amounted to this way. shutup and read this. DONT BE SO PATHETIC. i shall pop that egoistic bubble of yours one day. words can do best tricks. goodbyeeee!

2008-01-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

At a time like this, which is less than a day away to the release of the O level results, its not gonna help much harbouring all the negative 'what if' thoughts. I am just trying to calm myself down before 2 pm tomorrow. Hopefully, i'll be able to bring myself through the tension tomorrow. the tension is already overwhelming and as the clock ticks away, my heart's beating faster and faster.

The worry is already starting to show on my face and can be easily detected in my voice when I speak. The fact now is, I've to face the outcome no matter how it turns out. sooner or later, it'll come a time when I have to accept it the way I moulded my results.

Been doing some bloghopping and almost everyone taking results tomorrow are talking about it, which makes it so stressful to my eye and head because it only drifts my mind back to my what if thoughts again. The PSLE result day memories is back! Sometime you just hope 2 oclock just comes and you can open up and face the outcome, but then again.

Okay lah, I know its getting boring talking about results so before I end of this post, let me share something:

Something terrible happened to me at [around] 12 midnight yesterday. NO im not gonna say I encountered an incident with a ghost or anything. BUT, i just couldnt do anything. My back was so painful I just dont know what was even going to happen. I ended up lying on the hard, cold floor but to no avail. and I had to wake my sister up and ask for a massage. it didnt help either. and i was practically shaking that I had to hunt for panadol, cos I had no idea where my mum placed them. dang! Then after taking one capsule, i fell so soundly asleep. I just hope the same thing doesnt happen tonight.

Good night!

THOSE TAKING THE RESULTS TOMORROW, ALL THE BEST! :D

2008-01-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD.

I seriously cannot believe what Im gonna have to make myself believe. im in a terrible dilemma, debating with myself whether or not to accept you like that. DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT. punching the keyboard and typing very quickly, argh, don't mind me. im just venting my anger.

Shit. I think from now everytime I look at you, I'll be looking with a different view. no longer the one I used to have of you. So what if you think you're cool? sometimes, what matters more is the opinions from others, mate.

You think just because you're good with your english language you can play around with words to your liking. ha, FAT HOPE! not everyone will give way to you the way you think they would. I cant believe you're like that. How HOw HOW to make myself convinced that you're a cunning fox?

TRUST IS ONLY ONCE! lose it, and lose it forever. damn you for putting me in such a spot, to force myself to believe the bitter truth that you're no longer a person of your words. how long was this hidden identity intending to last? TO BAD. I FOUND OUT. YOU CAN CONTINUE LIVING IN YOUR WORLD OF FALSE ILLUSIONS.

; Went out on a shopping spree today. ooooh, i so love my family!!! was quite happy the whole of today. oh tired toooooo! i slept at my cousin's place because I was too tired to keep my eyes open! haha. Enjoyed the whole of today. until I came home and I realised something which made me so pissed that i bet i killed 1000000000000 braincells.

I.seriously.feel.like.im.going.to.break.down.anytime.soon.

2008-01-17T16:46:00.000+08:00

So things went pretty well yesterday during the ground breaking ceremony!

Im sure the team of ECO people were happy!

RIGHT RYAL?
RIGHT WILSON?
RIGHT AARON?
RIGHT LJ?
RIGHT KEPHREN?
RIGHT ASHLEY?
RIGHT JIETONG?

haha =D

considering the fact that everyone was quite busy, all over the place and so, thankfully EVEYTHING turned out as planned. :) GOH was Minister for Finance & Minister for Education, Mr Tharman Shanmugaratnam!

Being the emcee for yesterday's event was fun! There were people telling me I did a Good job! haha =D Tanglin was there too! Miss Leong, Miss Gan, Miss Tan Guan Guan. So, after the whole event, was talking to kephren about so many things, ranging from school to personal stuff and im amazed that we share so much in common! haha. its like.. a mystery wrapped in an enigma. For 15 years of my life I wasnt even aware that there was someone out there sharing quite a number of sentiments as mine. But still, it was nice talking to someone who knows exactly how you feel because he/she has been through what you're dictating =) REMEMBER KEPHREN, dont get stuck in a situation where its difficult to complete what you've started anymore!

The team of people from ECO Singapore are very friendly! actually my intuitions of some turned out wrong. very wrong. as in the first impression of them is totally not the way they are. i guess there are people like that. Im glad to have known people from this organization because they're awesome friends anyone can have. Fun loving =) haha, sit there read this and BE JEALOUS QUICK!!!!

It was a fun day yesterday!
I seriously Thank God for everything! :)

2008-01-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

Feeling so stressed up or perhaps caught in a situation in which you dont know how to move is detrimental. Yours truly is immersed in so many thoughts that I actually find myself having stm and being really reatrded at things. like before i turned the computer on, I took my handphone and placed in beside me. After chatting a while on msn and browsing through blogs, i suddenly looked up and shouted, 'eh! wheres my handphone?!' and my family members were like, isnt it with you? my reply, 'no la! DONT HAVE. OI!!!!!!!' okay and stupid enough, i placed my phone on silent mode. being a reatard, i tried calling my phone BUT OF COURSE COULDNT HEAR IT RINGING! thennnnnnnn, after looking all around, i found it right beside me. assssssss.

Yesterday i met theresa! :DDDD went down to JEC and saw weiqian there too!!!! AFTER EONS MAN. hoho, lucky i met her yesterday that quack never went for CCA Open house today. grrr~. had lunch at Pizza Hut with theresa. and we saw this auntie who to us seemed like she's not right mentally shouting at the people at the food court just because their cup was too small. thats the same auntie who scolded me and my friends when we were at KFC some time back. her nonsense are hilarious of course we will burst out laughing. and she went like, "can you'll stop laughing and behave yourself?" Like whateverrrrrrrrrr. we didnt stop laughing, duh. infact we laughed even more.

okay okay back to topic.

talked over lunch but not long later had to leave cos I had this Yeah camp meeting at JTC Summit! =D finally leadership mannnnnnn! its been so long. And after that went down to science centre ~~for the ~~ehhh, i dunno what thats called~~~~. tanglinians were there too =) im sure they had fun too right! though it was a bit of a put off to have made you guys wait. but hey, we can't expect to let the primary school kids wait instead right? =) And that aaron and kephren were disturbing me throughout the thing like nobody's business. EH I TELL YOU GUYS THATS NOT TRUE OKAY. But still, it's nice meeting them. although I had a awesome day, still thank you for those laughters! =) Walked down to the mrt station with aaron and it was nice talking to him! thanks for those advice man! met my mum and came home. Long day. but I enjoyed. thank God :D

Then at night, conferenced with stacey, theresa & jinwoon! omg, laughed like crazy on the phone! theresa was tired so she slept early :(((( but! me stacey & jinwoon did silly things. we were listening to 98.7 at the same time so we decided to sms in and have dedications! =) i was first so I messaged in, "hey emily! nice voice, love it! btw me and my friends are conferencing and we'd like to hear your guardian angel by the red jumpsuit apparatus. will you play that for us? thanks alot! rock on' it went through & she read the dedication and said, thanks aarti! hope you guys enjoyed the song. smth like that. we were screaming over the phone! haha. then it was stacey's turn. we decided to be lame so we told stacey to send, "hey emily. stacey here. my friends & I are suffering from insomnia and we won't be able to sleep till you play us dont stop the music by rihanna. thanks a million! hahahah. she read the dedication and said, oh no i hope you guys can sleep after this. smth like that too. haha. BUT jinwoon's dedication didnt get through :((( anyhow, EMILY IS SO SWEET! hoho. got off the phone at 2 am. from 10pm!

Today was Tanglin's CCA Open house! after so long the feeling of going back to the school is nice. met carin, theresa, eliza for breakfast in the morning first. Back in school caught up with so many teachers. and mr tan puay eng was so nice. we asked him, "miss us right? we know we're the best" and he laughed and went like, "I miss all the batches, ESPECIALLY YOURS" AWW~!
Miss the times in Tanglin! and Miss Sophia gave me a shock when she caught me from the back.=) talking to Miss Tang, Mrs Chng, Miss Sophia, Miss Portia Tan, Mrs Lee, Mr Chan, Miss Leong, Miss Kavitha.. was nice! helped around and well, it was funnnnn! actually frankly speaking, some of the sec one kids are rather rude. argh. but nvm. some were adorable!

Kfc-ed after that with theresa eliza siewhong and came back. DAMN TIRED. BACK ACHE AND HEADACHE. dang, i think im falling sick soon. how cool.

Before i put a fullstop to this post,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!
known you since sec 2 (you were 14!) now you're 17! time to be more matured and wiser righttttt. don't get so pissed off so easily. must try and control that temper of yours. thanks for being such a nice friend and a good listener! may all your wishes come true and best of luck! =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEPHREN!
Though we've only met each other not long ago, you're one nice person to talk to! fun to joke around with BUT NOT WITH THAT PHRASE OF YOURS. YOU AND YOUR NOTICE!! haha. hope you enjoyed your day and may the days that follow be awesome for you! dont forget! im the first to sms right? :))) hahaha. you're one cool friend! thanks!

wow, what a wordy post. but haha, no point in saying that. you've already read it! lol. take care ya'll!

2008-01-09T15:34:00.000+08:00

WASSUP YA'LL!

haaha. well. i cant stop laughing upon what had happened some time back. found it as a good blogging material. haha.

anyway, the conversation which triggered the laughter was the one with jason on msn :-

[Jason] yo aarti!

[Aarti] heyaa!

[Jason] after get O level results wanna go out eat as a class?

[Aarti] haha. im okay with that but if results not good HOW?

[Jason] haha. won't la.

[Aarti] lol. ha, okay.

[Jason] go where?

[Aarti] SWENSENS!

[Jason] haha. okay. BUT DONT PLAY WITH ICE CREAM AGAIN AH

okay so this is how it went. went to swensens once with alot of people (cant rememeber) after exams.

and we ordered icecream. and what happened was we just had this disgusting idea of mixing the ice cream together and my brilliant idea of asking the staff for straws so that we can literally DRINK THE ICE CREAM. yuck i know. maybe it was just some kind of post exam stress that we had to get rid off. lol, it was fun however so.

SO YES. thats the funny part. if u dont think its funny. too bad. =) you had to some sort of be there to witness how hilarious the whole situation looked.

Yesterday :

Some art work. haha. be proud!

Aarti.JieTong.Ashley.

RESULTS ARE COMING OUT SOON. oh gosh. sometimes i just hope it comes out TOMORROW SO THAT EVERYTHING CAN BE OVER AND DONE WITH. but then again, in life you dont get everything you want, huh?

so long sweeties!

2008-01-09T12:43:00.000+08:00

What Aarti Gupta Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.
You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-01-07T15:21:00.000+08:00

I'll.
wear.
a.
smile.
come.
what.
may!

2008-01-01T15:17:00.000+08:00

FIRST JANUARY 2008! (:

marking a new year ahead. this year will be filled with love, peace, laughter joy =))

May it be a good one for both you and me.

went to the temple yesterday! very crowded but at least there was still some place when we reached.

SAW SHARON, HARLENE, GOPAL, DILMEET there! aww. haha, i so miss them!

so anyways, some pics I took yesterday =)

I love my nails =)

SHARON! MY TWIN =) she's mixed blood just like me!

My cousin, Im always forcing her to take pictures with me :D