At a time like this, which is less than a day away to the release of the O level results, its not gonna help much harbouring all the negative 'what if' thoughts. I am just trying to calm myself down before 2 pm tomorrow. Hopefully, i'll be able to bring myself through the tension tomorrow. the tension is already overwhelming and as the clock ticks away, my heart's beating faster and faster.

The worry is already starting to show on my face and can be easily detected in my voice when I speak. The fact now is, I've to face the outcome no matter how it turns out. sooner or later, it'll come a time when I have to accept it the way I moulded my results.

Been doing some bloghopping and almost everyone taking results tomorrow are talking about it, which makes it so stressful to my eye and head because it only drifts my mind back to my what if thoughts again. The PSLE result day memories is back! Sometime you just hope 2 oclock just comes and you can open up and face the outcome, but then again.

Okay lah, I know its getting boring talking about results so before I end of this post, let me share something:

Something terrible happened to me at [around] 12 midnight yesterday. NO im not gonna say I encountered an incident with a ghost or anything. BUT, i just couldnt do anything. My back was so painful I just dont know what was even going to happen. I ended up lying on the hard, cold floor but to no avail. and I had to wake my sister up and ask for a massage. it didnt help either. and i was practically shaking that I had to hunt for panadol, cos I had no idea where my mum placed them. dang! Then after taking one capsule, i fell so soundly asleep. I just hope the same thing doesnt happen tonight.

Good night!

THOSE TAKING THE RESULTS TOMORROW, ALL THE BEST! :D

OH MY GOD.

I seriously cannot believe what Im gonna have to make myself believe. im in a terrible dilemma, debating with myself whether or not to accept you like that. DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT. punching the keyboard and typing very quickly, argh, don't mind me. im just venting my anger.

Shit. I think from now everytime I look at you, I'll be looking with a different view. no longer the one I used to have of you. So what if you think you're cool? sometimes, what matters more is the opinions from others, mate.

You think just because you're good with your english language you can play around with words to your liking. ha, FAT HOPE! not everyone will give way to you the way you think they would. I cant believe you're like that. How HOw HOW to make myself convinced that you're a cunning fox?

TRUST IS ONLY ONCE! lose it, and lose it forever. damn you for putting me in such a spot, to force myself to believe the bitter truth that you're no longer a person of your words. how long was this hidden identity intending to last? TO BAD. I FOUND OUT. YOU CAN CONTINUE LIVING IN YOUR WORLD OF FALSE ILLUSIONS.

; Went out on a shopping spree today. ooooh, i so love my family!!! was quite happy the whole of today. oh tired toooooo! i slept at my cousin's place because I was too tired to keep my eyes open! haha. Enjoyed the whole of today. until I came home and I realised something which made me so pissed that i bet i killed 1000000000000 braincells.

I.seriously.feel.like.im.going.to.break.down.anytime.soon.

So things went pretty well yesterday during the ground breaking ceremony!

Im sure the team of ECO people were happy!

RIGHT RYAL?
RIGHT WILSON?
RIGHT AARON?
RIGHT LJ?
RIGHT KEPHREN?
RIGHT ASHLEY?
RIGHT JIETONG?

haha =D

considering the fact that everyone was quite busy, all over the place and so, thankfully EVEYTHING turned out as planned. :) GOH was Minister for Finance & Minister for Education, Mr Tharman Shanmugaratnam!

Being the emcee for yesterday's event was fun! There were people telling me I did a Good job! haha =D Tanglin was there too! Miss Leong, Miss Gan, Miss Tan Guan Guan. So, after the whole event, was talking to kephren about so many things, ranging from school to personal stuff and im amazed that we share so much in common! haha. its like.. a mystery wrapped in an enigma. For 15 years of my life I wasnt even aware that there was someone out there sharing quite a number of sentiments as mine. But still, it was nice talking to someone who knows exactly how you feel because he/she has been through what you're dictating =) REMEMBER KEPHREN, dont get stuck in a situation where its difficult to complete what you've started anymore!

The team of people from ECO Singapore are very friendly! actually my intuitions of some turned out wrong. very wrong. as in the first impression of them is totally not the way they are. i guess there are people like that. Im glad to have known people from this organization because they're awesome friends anyone can have. Fun loving =) haha, sit there read this and BE JEALOUS QUICK!!!!

It was a fun day yesterday!
I seriously Thank God for everything! :)

Feeling so stressed up or perhaps caught in a situation in which you dont know how to move is detrimental. Yours truly is immersed in so many thoughts that I actually find myself having stm and being really reatrded at things. like before i turned the computer on, I took my handphone and placed in beside me. After chatting a while on msn and browsing through blogs, i suddenly looked up and shouted, 'eh! wheres my handphone?!' and my family members were like, isnt it with you? my reply, 'no la! DONT HAVE. OI!!!!!!!' okay and stupid enough, i placed my phone on silent mode. being a reatard, i tried calling my phone BUT OF COURSE COULDNT HEAR IT RINGING! thennnnnnnn, after looking all around, i found it right beside me. assssssss.

Yesterday i met theresa! :DDDD went down to JEC and saw weiqian there too!!!! AFTER EONS MAN. hoho, lucky i met her yesterday that quack never went for CCA Open house today. grrr~. had lunch at Pizza Hut with theresa. and we saw this auntie who to us seemed like she's not right mentally shouting at the people at the food court just because their cup was too small. thats the same auntie who scolded me and my friends when we were at KFC some time back. her nonsense are hilarious of course we will burst out laughing. and she went like, "can you'll stop laughing and behave yourself?" Like whateverrrrrrrrrr. we didnt stop laughing, duh. infact we laughed even more.

okay okay back to topic.

talked over lunch but not long later had to leave cos I had this Yeah camp meeting at JTC Summit! =D finally leadership mannnnnnn! its been so long. And after that went down to science centre for the ehhh, i dunno what thats called. tanglinians were there too =) im sure they had fun too right! though it was a bit of a put off to have made you guys wait. but hey, we can't expect to let the primary school kids wait instead right? =) And that aaron and kephren were disturbing me throughout the thing like nobody's business. EH I TELL YOU GUYS THATS NOT TRUE OKAY. But still, it's nice meeting them. although I had a awesome day, still thank you for those laughters! =) Walked down to the mrt station with aaron and it was nice talking to him! thanks for those advice man! met my mum and came home. Long day. but I enjoyed. thank God :D

Then at night, conferenced with stacey, theresa & jinwoon! omg, laughed like crazy on the phone! theresa was tired so she slept early :(((( but! me stacey & jinwoon did silly things. we were listening to 98.7 at the same time so we decided to sms in and have dedications! =) i was first so I messaged in, "hey emily! nice voice, love it! btw me and my friends are conferencing and we'd like to hear your guardian angel by the red jumpsuit apparatus. will you play that for us? thanks alot! rock on' it went through & she read the dedication and said, thanks aarti! hope you guys enjoyed the song. smth like that. we were screaming over the phone! haha. then it was stacey's turn. we decided to be lame so we told stacey to send, "hey emily. stacey here. my friends & I are suffering from insomnia and we won't be able to sleep till you play us dont stop the music by rihanna. thanks a million! hahahah. she read the dedication and said, oh no i hope you guys can sleep after this. smth like that too. haha. BUT jinwoon's dedication didnt get through :((( anyhow, EMILY IS SO SWEET! hoho. got off the phone at 2 am. from 10pm!

Today was Tanglin's CCA Open house! after so long the feeling of going back to the school is nice. met carin, theresa, eliza for breakfast in the morning first. Back in school caught up with so many teachers. and mr tan puay eng was so nice. we asked him, "miss us right? we know we're the best" and he laughed and went like, "I miss all the batches, ESPECIALLY YOURS" AWW~!
Miss the times in Tanglin! and Miss Sophia gave me a shock when she caught me from the back.=) talking to Miss Tang, Mrs Chng, Miss Sophia, Miss Portia Tan, Mrs Lee, Mr Chan, Miss Leong, Miss Kavitha.. was nice! helped around and well, it was funnnnn! actually frankly speaking, some of the sec one kids are rather rude. argh. but nvm. some were adorable!

Kfc-ed after that with theresa eliza siewhong and came back. DAMN TIRED. BACK ACHE AND HEADACHE. dang, i think im falling sick soon. how cool.

Before i put a fullstop to this post,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!
known you since sec 2 (you were 14!) now you're 17! time to be more matured and wiser righttttt. don't get so pissed off so easily. must try and control that temper of yours. thanks for being such a nice friend and a good listener! may all your wishes come true and best of luck! =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEPHREN!
Though we've only met each other not long ago, you're one nice person to talk to! fun to joke around with BUT NOT WITH THAT PHRASE OF YOURS. YOU AND YOUR NOTICE!! haha. hope you enjoyed your day and may the days that follow be awesome for you! dont forget! im the first to sms right? :))) hahaha. you're one cool friend! thanks!

wow, what a wordy post. but haha, no point in saying that. you've already read it! lol. take care ya'll!

WASSUP YA'LL!

What Aarti Gupta Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

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FIRST JANUARY 2008! (:

9th June 1991.
Crossed Religion.
Drama and Debate (:
Dont read me, i'm an equation you can never solve