Regret?
I hate this word. For once, I lost to the promise I always stuck to of never wanting to do something which might get me in a direct situation of regret.

The past two weeks been hell depressing weeks because of I dont know what reason but it just didnt turn out the way I expected it to. To be truthful, the smile I had through these two weeks are what we all call - plastered smiles. When I smiled, I didnt smile within me. When I laughed, it was to respect the joke. When I said I was okay, I was not. When asked, how you feeling and when I replied better, I lied. Yes that pretty much screwed my two weeks were. Its just another one of those, my genuine happy emotions are on holidays and they'll be back.

I have a marvellous family (happy and united as always), I have fantastic friends, I enjoy doing some things which Im doing, I do not suffer from anything strong enough to pull me down, and no im not 'emo-ing', no im not depressed about life, no im not sooo unhappy to the verge of crying myself to sleep, no im not pmsing AND NO IM NOT A NUTCASE.

The worst part of it all is when you feel you have people around who would give you support, help you through but you just want to tell no one about it - in other words, cross this hurdle youself. You gather enough reasons to be happy but only to fail again when one negative thought appears and spoils it all. How ironic, I know.

As all these stories intertwine, they're gonna play a familiar tune which your head has always wanted to ignore, they'll bug you all at one go which your heart which choose to ignore. ignore. if only it worked to ignore and never again be bothered about it.

Gavin left. One facilitator Ive always looked up to. Its damn sad that he left becuase Im sure he's the one who gave the class a better foresight of Cognitive and about 'who said powerpoint needed to be 10-12 slides' and of all the facilitators, though his questions are intense and thought provoking, it always appears to make sense and bring you on the correct path of thinking through the problem of the day. At least when I broke down once, he was there to tell me that it wasnt the end - there was more to (the reason why I broke down). So yeah, all in all he created an impact. Its sad. (ANOTHER REASON TO FEEL SAD DAMN IT)

As i type this I can sort of feel the intensity of this blog post and I freaking dont wanna continue because feeling damn sad has no limitations to how much I can complain.

oh my god, i smell the scent of a nice drink my mum's making. =)
a nice hug from my mum makes all sadness and worries disappear!

16th june 2008:


HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, SANDHYA DEEP KAUR<3!

played pool in rp's library cafe and thereafter cut a slice of oreo cheesecake, with her:D

though simple, i hope you like it! ALL THE BEST FOR THE SEVENTEENTH YEAR, BABE.


w3h gave Candy and I a belated birthday surprise! IT WAS AWESOME. i got a name necklace and candy got a name bracelet. so sweet of them really. thank you so much you guys. love ya'll!


Happy belated birthday to you too, Candy!


yes, gemini rocks:D


awww, w34h thanks!!!!!!

17th june 2008:

AND THEN ON TUESDAY DRAMA MATES WERE SOOOO SWEET.
TOP (LEFT > RIGHT) : ZAI, ADRIEL
BOTTOM (LEFT > RIGHT) : SHAHEEDAH, MEUTIA


THANK YOU GUYS. LOVE LOVE LOVE!

After reading the script numerous times (hah)

say hi to zai! (jeez it ryhmes!)


this picture is concrete evidence of how boring enterprise can get with all the microsoft excel and calculations. :S

for those who still do not know, yeah i did french manicure. nail extensions:)

19th june 2008 :
today was damn productive. not that all other days werent, but today was just one of the best ones i have to admit. BECAUSE IT WAS CHEMISTRY. =) lessons and presentations were a breeze.

okay i just realized something, no wait i realized two things :
1) my blog is so picture based now (good or bad, you judge)
2) i have to start blogging stuff which are not so people directed because those who dont know me will end up understanding nothing at all.

Anyway, playtime groups have been formed. scripts done, characters finalized. left to correct steps and actually why am I making it sound like so much is done. it's barely started, aarti gupta.

There was this bazaar from O2 skin products in school today. got my mum eyeshadows and got myself a lip gloss:] and also bought cereals which kinda made the whole class addicted to. yay me.

there it is, yet another successful after much procastinating update

since its june 15, it's time to shout:

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! I LOVE YOU MY DEAREST DAD:)

Just came home from a family lunch gathering and got some presents for my dad. cut the cake and now am just lazing around to recharge for the new day.

and its sandhyaaaaa's birthday tomorrow :]

alright, i'll update real soon!<3

friend.

this word holds alot of meaning, only if seen in the right perspective. it sure sucks though to lose a good friend who once shared all laughters, shared happy moments, smiled you through the days you were down, lending a shoulder to halve your problems. who would have ever dreamt things would turn out this way? there were ups and downs, i dont deny. but havent we always agreed on the phrase, 'what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger?' things just had to turn out this way. Even at this juncture, i refuse to say we moulded things into this stage because I know both you and I have no intentions or whatsoever for things to become like that. I am loaded with thoughts on how and why it turned out this way and what caused it.

I refuse still to believe there is no chance for things to go back to normal. all i want to know is why are there so much of lies in this close friendship of ours? infantile, dont you think? what is wrong with just telling me the truth? nothing, i repeat, nothing will change even if you tell me what is going on. i dont know why you refuse to tell me the truth? it just seems like you are bent on making me jealous. and this is plain wierd. it is pointless for me to be jelaous? i have no reason to be.

to me, this friendship means more than what caused it to turn out this way. unhappiness, jealousy, ignorace, stubborn attitude - whatsoever. maybe it isn't you. maybe its just me. the way I have changed. maybe I have to deal with this in a better way.

you used to be a good friend. is it too much to ask if i say i want that good friend back? WITH NO DOUBTS?

9th june (:

bugis. seoul garden. neoprints. orchard. imm. cable cars. mount faber. jewel box. a feast. sweetest ambience ever. presents. wishes. hugs & kisses are all that will make a 17th birthday sweet and memorable.


I enjoyed myself alot. Thanks you guys for the wishes and presents.
A BIG THANK YOU TO MY FAMILY FOR THE BRILLIANT NIGHT:D
GOD, THANKS FOR GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL DAY TO REMEMBER:D

the sad thing is, the day is coming to and end:( aww, why does it have to end so fast.... ahaha nvm. what matters most is, it is a wonderful 17th to remember!

9th June 1991.
Crossed Religion.
Drama and Debate (:
Dont read me, i'm an equation you can never solve