Wednesday, June 11, 2008
friend.
this word holds alot of meaning, only if seen in the right perspective. it sure sucks though to lose a good friend who once shared all laughters, shared happy moments, smiled you through the days you were down, lending a shoulder to halve your problems. who would have ever dreamt things would turn out this way? there were ups and downs, i dont deny. but havent we always agreed on the phrase, 'what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger?' things just had to turn out this way. Even at this juncture, i refuse to say we moulded things into this stage because I know both you and I have no intentions or whatsoever for things to become like that. I am loaded with thoughts on how and why it turned out this way and what caused it.
I refuse still to believe there is no chance for things to go back to normal. all i want to know is why are there so much of lies in this close friendship of ours? infantile, dont you think? what is wrong with just telling me the truth? nothing, i repeat, nothing will change even if you tell me what is going on. i dont know why you refuse to tell me the truth? it just seems like you are bent on making me jealous. and this is plain wierd. it is pointless for me to be jelaous? i have no reason to be.
to me, this friendship means more than what caused it to turn out this way. unhappiness, jealousy, ignorace, stubborn attitude - whatsoever. maybe it isn't you. maybe its just me. the way I have changed. maybe I have to deal with this in a better way.
you
used to be a good friend. is it too much to ask if i say i want that good friend back? WITH NO DOUBTS?
♥