like the lazy ocean
hugs the shore,
hugs the shore,
Thursday, October 30, 2008
meu: baby, imy, meet soon, rmbr lour lunch dates!
meu: *our
meu: n i don't see my link
meu: n , what happened to the "i'll tear ur tshirt n bite ur hair off"? rawr!
Yes darling im still gonna tear shirts and bite hair! i miss you too. haha. linked :) lovelovelove
siewhong: finally you updated your blog huh ! hahas, hmmm, i dont know what had happened but be sure that we will be there for you when you need us love you girl !
Only to have it dead again! haha:) thanks babe. I love you!
yenxi: hi aarti! w45h ahlian!
yenxi: she say one mah! right aarti?
Hello! yup, right. haha
elaine: how come aarti is ahlian?
Scold bad words manymany HAHAHA. remember that!
Sean: dont try to read you. ='[
Yea goodfriend! all the crapping in class, laughing, playing, joking, theres more to it! haha. :) miss you!
XUEJUN: AHHAAA. YES TODAY WAS FUN(: imma your slut, remember. LOLL~
XUEJUN: LINKY ME TOO(:
Definitely! haha. YES SLUT I LOVE YOU
Nick: lols sis i understand abit nia.... lucky i have a good foundation in lit sia LOLS time will heal all wounds i guess?? whever in doub talk to the wall =X it helps =) take care....
OMG NICHOLAS MOK WEN HAO I MISS YOU SHIT LOADS. hahaha. :) i hope it does! you take care too. talk to you online!
weiliang: Ah lian and ah beng of W45H ROX!!!!
HAHA. YESSS AHBENG. IM MISSING YOU!
IM 17!: Woohoo!
woohoo nabs! hope you enjoyed :D
yenxi: aarti your banana thing is really aiyoyoyo..tsk tsk
hahaha. lucien's gonna get it lah!
[S]hikito: hi stinky!!i miss u. roar. whn are u gonna eat icecream w me. meow
haha. miss you too! soon i promise! lovelove
seri: i missed u babe!
honey i miss you loads too! <3
naj! nudge!!: AAAaaaRRRTTTTIIIII!!!
NUDGENUDGEEEE :D
zai: babe...... i miss you baby girl!!!!!!!!
zai: yeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
hey sweets! miss you too :) all the best for anchor project!
yenxi: i tagged the class blog. you turn now!(;
yea, i did :)
Vivek: boo
hello darling :D
ashley: yes, you're right, just eight nos away...
yep! hahaha.
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omg, this blog is dead man.
thank god for the tagboard.
I have so much to blog about but where do I start?
I'll be back.
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Tuesday, October 7, 2008
School today is damn fun. As im typing this, there are so many people laughing behind me. My class is so on the topic of bananas today! Omg, horny class AND WE'RE LOVING IT :P
HAHA.
Elaine, me weiliang and arshad are in a team and omg weiliang is scared of me and elaineeeeeeee! all we need to do is go, 'weilianggggggggggg...." and he'll say ok to anything we ask for or not he becomes a victim! This class is sooo funny really.
And lucien and me have been going on and on and on about bananas today and the faci thinks we're crazy pervetic people. HAHA. omg, lucien youuuuuu better listen to me if not i'm starting the banana thing again!!
Its Math today and its kinda okay :) at least we didnt get questioned sooo much. and im doing some puzzle wordsearch from sean. omg, so entertaining :D im faster than you sean, dont try to challenge you're so gonna lose :)
Okayyyy, so today :
Happy Birthday darling sylvia! Stay happy alright! will be here for you no matter what! Enjoy your birthday, dear!
HAHA.
Elaine, me weiliang and arshad are in a team and omg weiliang is scared of me and elaineeeeeeee! all we need to do is go, 'weilianggggggggggg...." and he'll say ok to anything we ask for or not he becomes a victim! This class is sooo funny really.
And lucien and me have been going on and on and on about bananas today and the faci thinks we're crazy pervetic people. HAHA. omg, lucien youuuuuu better listen to me if not i'm starting the banana thing again!!
Its Math today and its kinda okay :) at least we didnt get questioned sooo much. and im doing some puzzle wordsearch from sean. omg, so entertaining :D im faster than you sean, dont try to challenge you're so gonna lose :)
Okayyyy, so today :
Happy Birthday darling sylvia! Stay happy alright! will be here for you no matter what! Enjoy your birthday, dear!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABYYYY BABYYYYY. :D we joke sooo much in class and end up laughing like crazy people. fun ah! Seventeen already ( i know! finally right ) <3>
This group joked so much with dr shanthi yesterday:)
NABILAH! how much we laughed before taking this pic, you remember? :)
HAHA AH BENG, you know we're still good siblings:)
Goodfriend, dont be naughty. no blackmailing nonsense ahhh!
This group joked so much with dr shanthi yesterday:)
NABILAH! how much we laughed before taking this pic, you remember? :)
DEAREST SLLLLLUT <3
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
this post is going to make no sense to any of you so you can skip this entry, really. but if you're gonna read on dont blame me for being so confusing, you've been warned.
I was once person A. so when the same thing is happening now,I know exactly how it feels. So what now? think and think and think and get depressed over and over again? what.is.the.point, really? pondering over it so much - does it get anything anywhere? So much of unsettled emotions which draws me so close to screaming my lungs out and just pulling my hair off. there's a sky of things I wanna let out from myself but who - to who would I really wanna tell it to? there are friends Im really close to and I know I can count on them when I need someone to talk to but how am I going to bring about this topic? if I had an idea,I wouldnt be the way I am today. What happened to 'letting go?' what happened to 'im not going to give a damn?' it was all a bucket full of lies. I never was able to put down that baggage of unhappiness because it's eating me up down left right inside out. this unutterable emotions clogged up in me makes me feel like crying every single time. But to what extent? For how long more? Why do I have to be stuck in a situation like this - it was a situation I never thought was so impactful. I always thought people who felt like that were so lame, were attention seekers. Now I know how it feels. the feeling is horrible. every time I think about it, it leaves a screaming emptiness within me.
Its aarti gupta we're talking about here. Someone who never used to get affected by teeny weeny things like that. Wait, I take that back. this whole situation is not teeny weeny. I rephrase that : Someone who never used to get affected by things like that. So why all of a sudden? It scares me really to know how much I go through but am still not able to express myself in words because its not as easy as reciting ABC. I am someone who can express myself very very very well but I DONT KNOW WHY FOR THIS STUPID SHITHOLE IM STUCK IN, IM....STUCK. I cant seem to find words to replace the way I feel. I guess I can only talk to the person who is in this with me (I doubt the person even knows). My close friends only know bits and pieces of the whole story and when we randomly joke about it - its a joke and laugh off matter but the thing is I never really told them it was such a facade I was putting up all these while. I never laughed sincerely when this matter was brought up because I know only I know how it feels.
I hope its not retribution. I know im not supposed to be so bitter towards a particular someone but I really can't help it anymore. Seeing everything just going on like that - damn it Im making second guesses all the time and its getting very annoying. Im getting sick and tired of it. Its either I stop thinking so much about it or I put a fullstop to it.
Dear God......
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Wednesday, October 1, 2008
DEAR YOU,
I DONT LIKE YOU I DONT LIKE YOU I DONT LIKE YOU OKAY. HALT SEEKING ATTENTION ALRIGHT? YOU ARE SO SO SO SELF CENTERED AND ALL YOU DO IS PICK ON THE FLAWS OF OTHERS - COME ON MISS-IM-EVERYTHING-THE-WHOLE-WORLD-REVOLVES-AROUND-ME, YOUR ATTITUDE IS DISGUSTING. SO WHAT IF YOU THINK YOU ARE SO WELL LIKED? NOTICE I USED "YOU THINK". FAR BE IT FROM ME TO IMPUGN THAT ATTITUDE OF YOURS, BUT I REALLY CANT STAND YOU. YOUR INFANTILE CHARACTER MAKES ME WANNA JUST SIT BACK AND LAUGH RIGHT INTO YOUR FACE WHEN YOU SAY SOMETHING WHICH YOU THINK IS SO COOL. OH PUHLEASE.
DEAR MUSLIM READERS,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA<3
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