RELIEF TEACHING HAS BEEN SO AWESOME :)

because... i have nice company at school! so much so that free periods are no longer boring!

Christina and Shuhailah are doing relief teaching as well and! everytime we have free time, it's so nice to be able to sit and talk to them! haha. sometimes talking to people you've just met but seem to clique so well is such a good thing. no communication barrier! not like i had a problem with that, but still....

Apart from the fact that the 2 of them find someone hot and only I have luck with that someone. hurhur. NEHNEHNIPOOPOO you two!

Frankly speaking, talking to the two of them surprisingly is so easy. Doesnt seem like I just got to know them. Sad thing's that Christina's away on attachment now, so its just me and Shuhailah. but its okay, CHRISTINA GET BACK FAST! We'll be waiting for you! haha.


Shuhailah :]

As much as Jiemin claimed sometime ago, that he's sad that there'll be no more w45h when school reopens, I guess its time to admit that I've been pushing aside this daunting fact. So much so that thinking of it makes me all emotional again. If there's one thing I'd have to say about myself that I pretty much H.A.T.E- i am such an emotional freak. I hate it hate it HATE IT.

That brings me to this : 2 of my friends are now talking to me about their grandparent not being in the best of health. I am just hearing them out, I repeat, hearing them out - but it brings back those unwanted memories. brings my spirits to the lowest ebb imaginable.

Anyway, I have a friend whom I used to like being around alot. um before you start double guessing, she's a girl. A used to be my close friend for sooooo long and as for as long as I knew her, we used to do so many things together. Laugh play gossip get into trouble cry(IM SERIOUS) together. So close that I dare say we dont even quarrel much. But now? I cant even say we dont quarrel. because on the surface we seem to randiant and fine but its actually all shaky and unstable from the inside. Sucks pretty much to see a friendship which was going so strong tumble just like that. but what can I do? yes, we've "talked it out" but honestly, I doubt it meant much because nothing changed. kept on telling ourselves we've to stop fighting but we never do (silent fights, i mean).

I am so tired of all these, I swear. I hate it that when your name is brought up I have to change the topic. I really have to because I dread talking about it - after that the shit in me I have to deal with is untolerable. Its not that I'm saying you've changed or anything. Im just saying. we've changed. we've both changed towards one another. It affects me alot but everytime we talk it out nothing seems to change so I've pretty much given up talking.

I love you alot, girlfriend. I really do. You're someone I kind of grew up with. You're that someone I sat with and tried to calm when you were in a frenzy and all over the place 2 years back. You're someone I'd go miles for. You're someone I used to talk to on the phone till the wee hours. You're that someone I could look at and laugh at. You're that someone who would still love me though I abandoned you so many times because of my other commitments (i think if you know its you, you know what im referring to) Most of all, You're that someone I could really trust. I really want that friendship back - hopefully its not too late.

Truth be told, I feel like shit now.

9th June 1991.
Crossed Religion.
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