No seriously, so much has been happening that now I get down to blogging, I dont know which event to start off with.

Okay Reshmi's 18th first.

Held a celebration for her in her class.
That was pretty much the first part of the celebrations. :]


I hope you had fun!

Second part of the celebrations saw us at Mount Faber.



I'm more than certain reshmi loved this alot because she's always wanted to go to Mount Faber. And she loves sceneries. Took the cable car for the first time as well. oh well, at least she enjoyed her memorable 18th birthday :]

In the car on the way to school this morning, had a general talk with my mum and it was on the most sensitive topic. My grandfather. What we spoke about got me so emotional that I cried in silence and secretly, since I was sitting at the back. I still find it difficult to talk about such a topic up to date. I guess Im acceptable to the fact that he's no longer with us, but im not over that fact.

I really loved my grandfather alot. Every morning I remember walking up to him and saying one or two lines before heading off for anything, I remember kissing him goodnight everyday. I remember sponging him when he used to have high fever. I remember cleaning him when he dirties himself. I remember how he used to laugh with a smile so wide when we used to joke at home. I remember when he used to fetch me from Kindergarten and would always always always bring a sweet along. I remember how he'll always offer me food before he eats it. I remember how he used to tell me to be a good girl because life is not always as easy as we take it. I remember how he used to cheer me up when I come back from school so stressed. I remember how we used to sit and watch tv together.

The first shock came when he had dementia. I thought that was the end. I thought we'd all be gradually forgotten. It was hard to accept, but I took it in my stride and still thanked the fact that he was still with us. Thankfully, it was mild and on and off he still remembers who is who and what to do. I clearly remember when I was standing beside him in NUH ICU unit, and the only two people he responded to was my dad and me. Tears welled up that very moment. I knew my grandfather understood I was there as I always had been.

I saw him grow from such a strong man to someone so old and feeble with his health deteoriating one aspect at a time. Though it hurt so terribly to see him go through so much over the so weak and thin body he had, I couldn't do anything. Ambulance after ambulance in my house everytime he goes all weak and sick. From NUH, it was back home and in not more than a month, he was admitted to CDC. I knew clearly those were the last few days. A few instances we were warned to "be prepared". A few instances we rushed all the way down, but we were still 'lucky'. And then on the 24th March, he passed away in the afternoon. When I got the call from my mother and I heard her crying, I knew that instant, that was it. I had no means of expressing that sadness I've bottled up for so long other than crying my lungs out. That day was the last day I had my closest grandparent with me. He shared everything with me and meant the world to me. Him before anyone else.

But now, though he's gone, he's with me always in that fragile heart of mine. I try to keep myself so occupied so that I dont have time to think. But the moment Im left alone at home, I go all weak and emotional again. Home is just different without him.

My dearest grandfather, today was the one day every since you passed away that I got to talk to my mother about you. Wherever you may be now, do know that I still thank you for giving me all you have and for all you did. For all that happened, you were who God blessed me with. I love you with all my heart. I really yearn for you to be by my side, but its a wish which can never be granted. I've lost you forever but I still love you forever. :)

Okay this is so cool!

So I saw Siva on the way to class one morning. I know Siva through Lucien, my last sem good friend :) Siva and Lucien are like the bestest of friends, I can't say more than that.

Siva: Aarti! How was xx's birthday?
Aarti: Haha, i think it was good. you didnt wish?
Siva: No! Dont want ah! haha.
Aarti: Eh why you going E5?
Siva: I in E5 what!
Aarti: Huh! oh that means today you same class as Lucien ah?
Siva: We everyday same class!
Aarti: OMG! but i thought Lucien change class everyday?
Siva: Ya me also! But we change class but me and him still together in a class.
Aarti: Sia lah, so lucky. *gives a sad face
Siva: haha, me and lucien alot of things in common lah. birthdate also near each other's, coming soon *hehe*
Aarti: Eh! coming soon? when is lucien's birthday?
Siva: 11th june lor
---Then i was thinking, 11th june?! means Siva's birthday is around that time as well----
Aarti: HUH! THEN YOURS?
Siva: 10th june!
Aarti: OH MY GOD MINE IS 9TH JUNE!
Both burst out laughing.

This is seriously super coincidental man!

Over that, I have so many people in my class this sem with their birthdays falling in June.
2nd June: Claire
9th June: Aarti
13th June: Elly
14th June: Labin

I KNOW SO MANY OTHERS WHO HAVE BIRTHDAYS IN JUNE AS WELL. HAHA, EXPENSIVE MONTH! :D

Today's presentation was one of the most interesting ones I've ever explored with the group. Well, it included the whole group going down to AMK Hub just to interview a personal trainer from Fitness First. I kinda feel this is one of the best groups I've had because we can really relate well and flow on the same thoughts for most of the issues. :)

Not one,
Not two,
Not three,
Not four,
Not five
But six people have been asking me since yesterday if I was okay.


I might've looked lost in thoughts. yes I am, I really have alot on my mind.
I might not have been as cheerful as all other days. yes, I don't feel like doing nonsense or joking or playing.
I might have ignored certain requests. yes, I cannot keep up with the so fast pace.
I might be quiet at times. yes, I am not just quiet, im very very very tired as well.
I mightbe sarcastic, yes thats because I dont like you.


Sometimes, things just dont go your way. But for now, if only I could make everything be the way I want it to, I'll be happy. Very happy. I am drained just by thinking of everything that makes me tired. Throughout this "aarti-is-thinking-alot" period, I have lately realized how much people would go to help others. To know of someone you've given your all to most of the time, turning against the fact that you need help. Hell to not wanting to state the obvious for the very fact that people would gloat over it. Gloat all you want, because you loser in the end would feel sad of whatever pitiful fact you name. So come on get a life. I am not exactly in the best of moods to "spread the laughter and hyper activeness". I have people whom I can really trust to tell my bothers to but i just refuse to. I dont know why I choose to keep this within myself.


I could so totally dedicate the song, same script different cast to myself now. Dont try comprehending why, you'll never guess.


I'll be back with a post so different from this, just you see :)

Within a month, now that Im back to blogging, I've got so much to tell the world. I'm pretty sure after this entry the next one will not come before a week. unless I find anything worthy to blog, i wont even be signing in to blogger. I've been caught up with so many things, i cant even find time to update my blog which I have time and again reminded myself to. hahah, lets just say im hopeless.


The only reason I'm updating it today is because Im not feeling well (probably the only reason which can keep my ass home). Supposed to go back for Pre U Sem meeting but i really cannot gather enough energy to get up and get out of the house. I am so tired to the bone, I just wanna sleeeeeep the whole day away. I feel so bad for ditching the group today omg. But im doing my best by keeping online so that I can keep up with updates, Im just not there physically. I was supposed to meet sylvia today also because she's leaving tomorrow. AHHHH :(

I hate it. I used to never fall ill. Used to be so strong. But after secondary 3, i've been falling sick like nobody's business.


Oh for those who know I went to India, India was awesome. It was a place which made me realize how lucky I actually am. I know lah, so many of you keep saying im so spoilt dont wanna take public transport, always wasting food bla bla bla but none of these are intentional okay. I dont like taking public transport especially bus and mrt because i dont like travelling for so long
:( So if i ever travel a distance to meet you, you better know you mean alot to me! as for wasting food, if i really cannot eat means cannot eat lah. dont tell me i'm wasting food, i'll shove it down your mouth.


Bottle Tree Park with Vivek was fun yesterday! Im sure he was so fascinated with the swans. BUT IM SO SORRY FOR VOMITTING IN FRONT OF YOU TWO TIME YESTERDAY. HAHAHA. really not intentional okay! :( but anyway, glad you enjoyed every bit of it. You better remember mother's day is coming :)

Year 2 has started. hahha which brings me to the most important point of it. Its really no more playtime. I swear. Its getting more and more competitive by the problems. Class has been awesome nonetheless. Groups for all the modules are really easy to work with. The only difficulty I have is with Microeconomics. I really cannot catch up I so have to start from scratch soon. Im gonna die otherwise.

I MISS RELIEF TEACHING ALOT ALSO! :(



PICTURES TIME!

Jazrel, Aaron, Aarti, Eileen :)









SAME BAG!


LORRIAN!


ANITA!

I am feeling so emotional now. I got so many things I want to say to alot of people.



Oh screw it.

Replies to tags :


e)doublely.: time t update man drama queeen! (:
haha, i just did! haha i realized too.

dei: hi aarti ... (:
dr kwok! haha


CLAIRE: HeyHey! my new classmates... nice to be in the same grp with you! Cheers babe!
eh! totally! haha, nice talking to you too sweets!

minyi: I LOVE YOU BABE
love you too :)

anita: muackkkkk!!!!
xoxo!

e)doublely.: hihi babyyyyyyy! you pro girl !
hey honey! haha,no lah why am i pro?


meutia: updateeeeeeeeeeeee
meutia: <3>
i updated, love!


sylvia: baby!!!!!!
honey you better take care of yourself when you're away okay? ily.

siewhong: oi! update lah! hahas, i missed you babe !
haha updated la! i miss you too!


Jared: Oi. Miss the kids a lot. miss you and shu too. hmms. Thanks a lot for today. really reminded me a lot of things(: Jia yous!
chill. hahah. you too! yr 2 really not easy eh!

Nick: 1st day of sch u should update haha =)
done :) haha


Kuku: AARTI!!!!!RELNIK!!!
sure sure. soon!

Shuh: Ok one more fellow RT shud do it.LINK ME LAAAAH.ANW,MISS YOUUUUUUUUU! =)
hahaha okay soon! i miss you too!!


Jared: zzz... Link me link me!! hehs. ps sia. I nvr go sch today. >.<>
hahaha, soon!


Christina: oh.. juz realise.. why u neva link mi?!! =((
oops. soon! i got so many people to link hahahhaa


Okay, I guess the highlights of what I want to cover is up. back for more updates soon.

9th June 1991.
Crossed Religion.
Drama and Debate (:
Dont read me, i'm an equation you can never solve